river kassius

i hate wattpad on god

im never coming to this app officially because of my embarrassing past connecting to it but hello everyone i hope your day is good

i love my frens

please stop texting me. it scares me.

imagine faking mpd just to make yourself gain pity points. i don't know how to help you when you're having a fit, especially when im not physically there. when you're mad you scare me. why won't you stop texting me.

excuse me sir, do you know where i could buy a penis? like an actually functional, real, attachable penis? oh? you don't? sorry for wasting your time hahahahaha

I JUST READ A FIC THAT WAS HAPPY THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE BOOK THEN THEY FUCKING KILLED ONE OF THEM. FUCK Y'ALL FOR THAT BRUH I NEED MY HAPPY ENDINGS

let's give a fucking round of applause for fanfic writers. thank you for taking time out of your day to write stuff, and not even get payed for it. your content gives me life

i just read the migraine fic after denying it's existence and honestly im crying

schools slowly approaching. thinking about this, i suffered a year at that high school. i saw all of it. i experienced the transphobia, and maybe a little of homophobia, plus just in general some rude people. i don't want to go back to that school for sophmore year. i don't wanna go back, please don't make me go back. it caused me so much stress and so many breakdowns, i don't want to experience that again. i don't want to go back to that school and people introduce me to new people as dead name, i don't want to watch the friends i make eventually devolve and start calling me dead name again. i don't want people to look at me and say "hey, **deadname**, is that you? ive heard stuff of someone named river or something but didn't really believe it." 
          "you look really weird. why do you look like a boy? you shouldn't look like one. you're a girl."
          i don't want people to expose me either. im (kind of) passing well now, and the friends i have who know and introduce me to a new person, introduce me as "hey, this is my TRANSGENDER FRIEND *deadname*. they want to be called river though, so do that. SHE would be very happy with it." even though there might've been good intentions, that's not how you- That's not how i want to be introduced.. I just want someone at that fucking school that hasn't known me my entire life (that's the main issue, im going to the high school in the town ive lived in for all 15 years of my life. see the problem?) to say "hey, this is my friend river. he's pretty cool, i hope you guys become friends :)"
          i just want out of this town...