So, I really need to come out about something. Everyone, I have really bad social anxiety. I can't come out to anyone irl because all my friends think I'm such an outgoing person with happiness just flowing out of me. But really, everyday, I feel like I'm going to fall off a cliff every time I have to do a solo presentation. I don't talk to anyone in my my classes that have big numbers because I just get too filled with anxiety. Like my government class, I never talk to anyone because I'm too fearful of saying anything that could make me sound stupid. I'm too scared. I'm scared to ask any of my newer friends to hang out because I don't want to them to stop liking me. I'm extremely fearful of situations that would cause any kind of emotions. I recently told my friend, whose a guy, that I couldn't hang because I was too scared to be alone with him. The amounts of times that I've spent weekends alone in my room reading books of fictional characters with just my Christmas lights on. I feel alone a lot because I don't know how to talk to people. I don't know how to be friends with anyone. Most of the time people are just kinda forced into my life by my other friends, so I just accept them. But now, I don't know who I am anymore... It's okay though. I've only got a short time left of high school and I'm okay with being alone most of the time, I guess.