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Heyyy. 
          
          Long time no see .
          
          I’ve posted the last of the chapters of Nirvana. 
          
          There’s a longer message in the final note so if you guys want to read that you guys can.
          
          Thank you so much for the support, your views, votes and comments even though I went AWOL for years .
          
          I love you all so much 

Overslept by about a month

Yooo
          
          I haven't posted much in a hot minute.
          
          I just wanted to check in to see how everyone was doing.
          
          I hope everyone's okay and if not I'm here for a rant or whatever you need.
          
          It's starting to get rly cold over here so please remember to keep warm as much as you can.
          
          Don't skip meals, get enough sleep, drink plenty of water and exercise if you can.
          
          Idek how many people still are following this but if anyone is I love you guys so much, you are literally a huge help in my life.
          
          I'm sorry I'm not exactly great with words but just know I care a lot and am so grateful and thankful for you guys. <333
          
          Thank you for showing all the love you guys have shown and hopefully when the stress of school dies down a bit I'll be able to get regular updates back.
          
          If you've stuck by me, I have no words for how much you guys mean to me and to all the people who haven't that's okay as well. I still love you.
          
          New years is coming up and this year has gone way too fast for my liking.
          
          And THE9's graduation is soon as well and I'm feeling a load of things for that. 
          
          Anyways this is already quite long so imma leave it at that.
          
          Love you all 

Happy Halloween everyoneeee

Part 2 because it's too long ‍♀️
          
          I felt horrible all the time. I would put this off and considered dropping the whole thing as a whole. I don't even know what was keeping me going but there was a part of me who didn't want to disappoint anyone else. I didn't want to disappoint you guys. Every time I saw that someone voted or dropped a comment I felt seen. I didn't feel invisible. As much as I like being alone I hate it as well.
          
          I have no luck when it comes to friends so I gave up trying but everyone who I have spoke to on here or elsewhere I am unbelievably grateful for you. I would reach out again but I don't trust myself .
          
          I am going to try to keep updating at least once weekly but as of now, I might take a few weeks off to try and find a correct way to execute the storyline I want.
          
          I will try my best to balance school with this and hopefully there will be a second year post next year.
          
          I can't actually put into words how I feel because I'm crap at words in general but just know I love you guys and the achievements and goals I've reached would never be possible without you.
          
          ~ Love UM 

Part 1 because it's too long ‍♀️
          
          Heyy
          
          Ok so this isn't tomorrow whoops. Sorry I've been busy worrying about school. New things to get, clothes to try on, people to avoid, you know the usual.
          
          But I'm here now and I just wanted to say thank you so much for sticking around. I'm a very difficult person to be around whether in person or online. I've been told I'm self destructive and it makes sense. I'm used to hurting everyone around me so now I don't keep anyone around me. 
          
          I know I've spoke about mental health a bit in my story but I feel that it needs to be spoken about more. People who appear fine could be struggling so much. No one has a clue on to what they could be thinking. They could be at the lowest point in their lives and little things could drive them over the edge. 
          
          I know the whole c0v!d situation has been tough on a lot of people and it was for me as well. But this story was a release for me. I didn't feel judged or threatened even though I was putting myself out there. It was probably because no one knew who I was. I felt free for the few hours I spend on here. But then I lost all motivation.
          

          1 year...
          
          I'll post a longer message tomorrow because I'm rly tired right now. I just wanted to quickly say that I can't believe how much has happened in the past year. I've made friends and even though I might not talk to some now, I still am grateful for them and love them just as much. 
          
          I'm sorry that I haven't put out as many chapters and that this is dragging on but I've posted 5 chapters today. School is starting soon so I'll try my best to balance everything.
          
          I'll post a longer message tomorrow though and for now thank you, stay safe, good night and I love you guys.
          
          ~UM 

Omg did yall see Keyin and Anqi during the stage?!?! I hope they okay :(((

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          It's been a while ෆ╹ .̮ ╹ෆ

Hey everyone,
          
          I'm sorry it's been a long while. I haven't been in the best place mentally and even though I was getting better, it got rly bad again. I'm trying to sort myself out again but it's hard.
          
          I lost motivation for everything and getting out if bed every morning is a huge struggle. I dug this pit for myself so I guess I deserve feeling like shit.
          
          Anyways enough about me. We're coming up to Nirvana's one year anniversary since it's release and I wanted to see if I could do something for it. 
          
          Please please please reccomend songs for me to listen to and then I can try to make oneshots for it. Any song. Any language. Any genre. I. Don't. Care. Private message me or suggest on here. Comment on my story if you want to. I will try my best to produce good content in the future and I will try to get back to regular updates of Nirvana as well.
          
          Thank you if you stuck around and I'm sorry for any inconvenience I've caused. 
          
          Love you guys 
          ~UM