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I wake up so sore then remember my nephew sleeps in such a weird way cuddled up to me that I have to lay weird not to hurt him 
          
          
          My niece also enjoys chilling with her feet in my spine so there's that

Im super anxious rn then my niece (shes next to me in the carseat) started rubbing my arm like I do when she's upset

Bitches be like "I'm fine" but spends long periods without food or other necessities to feel control of their life and get angry when they have no control

Idk kinda weird the bullying I was receiving in Roblox servers went away once I took off my pride pin

Sorry I was having a panic attack and showed emotion accidently are we still friends

Me: having a mental breakdown because of the mess I'm my house I'm visiting while living with my sister
          
          My notifs: "I'm an asexual but im really getting into this."
          
          Me: snaps out of it and looks at the post

In my book about my life it shows me talking to a therapist
          
          I'd like to clarify these aren't real conversations with my therapist it's just conversations I've imagined because I'm scared to talk to her qbout my past
          
          There was a therapist in the past I talked to about some stuff so most of it is based off of conversations with her

the knew story i posted is 100% based off my life story so refrain from reading it if anything in the first chapter(Its just a list of possible triggers) upset you.
          
          i do not want you to feel bad for me or treat me completely different i just dont want to be alone.

My toxic trait is saying "question mark" outloud after everything I say that Is a question because I'm not sure how to properly emote how I feel

I ask people "how can I be mean" rather than "how can I stand up for myself" because standing up for myself has always been noted as bad or mean
          
          And then people claim I'm seeking attention and im not sure whay I've done wrong because I'm just trying to teach myself to be normal
          
          Im not seeking attention I just want help
          
          "Nobody has to be taught on how to be mean" "im sorry I worked it wrong" "stop attention seeking its really annoying."
          
          I wasnt trying to
          
          I hate interacting for people because I'm bad at it and I can't ever tell how I'm supposed to act