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I think I lost my spark of life.
Not in self harm, or thinking about hurting myself or anything but I think I just lost my spark of moving forward. Honestly I'm starting to think these whole Wattpad stories are just really dog shit, I haven't remembered the last time I had actually been proud of myself or something to be proud of. It feels like everyday I wake up to the exact same thing every time, I get up, get dressed, ear, go to school and come home to either sleep or be on my phone all day.
I also have really shitty self esteem I don't know any value or any for myself, which is also kinda pathetic of me and trying to find what I'm valuable of. People say I have something worth or something I'm good at, but it's so exhausting to see.
I'm just a normal person though going through some type of phase. I eat like shit, I sleep all the time, I don't even know if I'm a good friend or anything, and worse of all that's what I'm afraid of. Loving people way to much to where I feel so lost.
But hey it's just a phase I'm going through, I'll try to keep up with this writing and stuff but I'm so tired of even doing this bullshit.
Have a blessed day