Hey, I know you'll probably never see this, and tbh it doesn't matter much anymore but..just know I still haven't forgotten about you a single bit. It's been almost 3-4 years since we last talked, and I know I have done lots of mistakes I simply can't take back. I just wish I had the chance to improve myself towards you instead of acting all immature and you leaving me once again, acting like I've never done anything wrong. To be fair we've BOTH done mistakes and been immature in the past which is why any kind of relationship between us wasn't working out..you were also trying to push me away everytime for some reason and I've happened to realize that as I was looking through our old messages and chats on discord a while ago. I don't know why you would try to do that back when we were getting along well at the beginning but I'm not mad at you. I'm just kind of disappointed because I really thought our bond would last and have potential to improve even more since we had similar interests and we'd never get bored talking to eachother, even when we had completely different timezones.
I can't say I don't miss the times, I actually do. I don't care if it sounds crazy or corny saying it after all these years, but I never wanted to make you leave. I was trying to be the best version of myself when I would be around you, avoiding my personal issues and feelings by choosing to care and listen to only yours instead..trying to help you slowly heal yourself. It seemed like I wasn't enough to do anything in the process, so I gave up, and that's why I haven't tried directly contacting you anywhere except youtube (which was again a while ago).
I hope you're doing well, and if you somehow ever happen to see this, I'll still be around active so if you ever want to talk to me, you can send me a request on roblox or discord. (My username is @alex.41008)
