Just a heads up!
The following chapters for will contain drug abuse, and their side effects.
Everyone has their own way to cope with grief, some are healthy, while some are not. Be warned that I have no personal experience with addiction or drug dependence, I might describe or portrait things wrong.
I do not condone [M/N]'s behavior at all with how he try to run away from guilt, please don't adapt his toxic mentality. Thank you and have a great day.