𖤐 DISASTER 𖤐

Please Wattpad just deleted a story I’ve been working on for weeks and I had a chapter almost 1.2K words long that isn’t saved anywhere else please what do I do

I know I don’t follow many people (like at all-) but sometimes I look over and see that no one has made any messages to followers. Or updates. And I wonder why you all aren’t active and if you’re okay, but I realize I’ll never really know and I get sad sometimes about it

I wanna write a story so bad but I can’t even keep my own name straight or mental state solid lmao

Why do I post here like some straight popular girls private story if she were a gay guy lmao. Anyways uhhh I’ve just about mcfuck!ng had it with school and this dirt sh!t therapist. I’d almost rather drop it and get an actual job, even if no one would hire me lol I’m sure the mall hot topic would like me UvU

Me: I’m gonna write a slow burn for the oneshots book I’m coming up with!
          Also me: smutsmutsmutsmutsmutsmu-

I HAVE to stop looking at the bf AMSR videos. Bc I just got called “good girl” and I folded like a fucking quesadilla and fell off my bed. But idk if that’s bc I was getting praised(stupid kinky mf-), the way he said it, or if I genuinely liked it. 
          
          So it’s gender crisis time ;-; maybe 6/7th grade me was right and I AM genderfluid lmao
          
          
          So uh,,, grandma if you’re seeing this, I TOLD you to get off this account. You didn’t listen. Please get out and never bring this up. 

you were the first person i followed ( ´ ▽ ` )

Y’all ever just writing/drawing and you’re doing really great and you’re going and going and the sECOND you finish it and get a new idea you fxcking LOVE you just it that block and you can’t?? Like is that just me lol, it’s like I’ve hit burnout after one tiny project and I haven’t even gotten hardly any ideas out bro

I just name things randomly like none of it actually makes sense anymore. I have a playlist called “Fxck Lemon & Banana Cxm”, one called “Honeysuckle Toothpick”, and  #15” (which is the 7th, actually...). Like I don’t even know anymore but I do get a kick out of it at like 3 in the morning lmao soooooo (•u•*) uhh 

I have Spotify playlists for all of the Voltron Paladin. Like Lance and Shiro’s are Nicki Minaj, Beyoncé, Kesha, Katy Perry, Melanie Martinez, Harry Styles, and Taylor Swift, that sorta stuff. Pidge has DMHIS, Cavetown, a windows XP start up slowed way down, The Fitness Gram Pacer Testᵀᴹ, literally whatever tf. Hunk has chill lofi beats for days. Keith has Green Day, MCR, TØP, McCafferty, emo on shuffle for life. Coran and Allura would listen to Pidges music and think all of Earth is like that and just resort to Celtic meditation music on YouTube that lasts 3 hours with an over lay of slow Fitness gram pacer test, but mega slowed windows xp remix.