V3nus-Tears

I hate when wattpad randomly logs me out and gives me a heart attack thinking I forgot my password

Remembering my old books is so humiliating. Especially when I remember that I was kinda racist and disgusting. 

I don't want to be horny I just want to be happy

I absolutely adore fanfics where the reader is toxic asf and gives the characters a reality check

Everyone keeps fucking calling me fat. I get that it's a joke but I'm not laughing, especially when it's a person that knew I had an ED. It just really fucking makes me feel shitty about myself like you hate when I lose weight but make fun of me when I gain weight, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?! I JUST WANT TO BE ME! BE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING WITH A NORMAL HUMAN BODY WITHOUT BEING INSULTED FOR IT!

I don't wanna do this anymore. I'm exhausted of everything, why even bother trying if I knew I was bound to fail from the very start. Why should I even continue my journey if I wasn't suppose to be here? No one wants me, my own mother didn't want me at first, she just got stuck with me. I don't wanna continue, i just want to rest.

I love my cat so much

I feel like my experiences have to be worst to be valid and taken seriously  like I'm not even sure if I got sa'd or it was just harassment cuz he didn't go all the way with me but it dosent really erase the fact that he used to grope me without my consent and say weird/disgusting things to me. This man isn't a friend or a weird classmate, He is my COUSIN like not even like a super distant cousin he is a direct relative he is my FIRST cousin. I couldn't tell anyone abt it back then cuz ik my parents would blame me instead of him and his mom would do the same.

No matter what I do I always feel so empty inside 

I fucking hate my dad