Why is it that when someone else cries everyone is there and then when I do it no one sees it? What do I need to do? WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? THE F*CK YOU WANT FROM ME? TELL ME
I will never find "Home" will I? It's long lost, no one sees, no one cares. The thoughts of k*ll*ng myself, of committing something as gruesome as that continue to weed out, I cry for God's sake, I scream and I beat myself up mentally almost everyday!
Oh, but when they look at me Its when I'm not longer crying, my tears are dry, and my poker face is on, NO ONE F*CKING BATS AN EYE
I need to be there, to deal with everybody's problems and bullsh*t, but when it's my turn, NO ONE IS THERE
YOU WANT ME TO FEEL JEALOUS WORLD? OR DO YOU WANT ME SO BADLY TO COMMIT SU*C*DE?