Ya.girl.stellar

hey again

I want to go outside again but it's already night and I'm only allowed to go outside if my brother needs to go somewhere, if I have to pick him up, go to school or to a family event but I really want to go outside again, I hate having to stay at home for so long and there's almost nothing to do where I live too the only thing I can do is bed rot and try to do smth like writing to pass the time bc i always stay at home for so long that its hard for me to even get up and eat atp[weep]

When I say no one I mean NO ONE THAT HAS EVER LIVED ON EARTH FUCKS WITH KAISHINGEKI THE WAY I DO I LOVE KAISHINGEKI TO THE BONE

Js read the recent chapters of firefly wedding and HOLY SHIT WAS IT WILD[shock]

If I ever get buried I want to be buried with my grave decorated and stuff or js right next to the picnic table in my childhood home w flowers on top of where I'm buried

Let's hope my parents don't check smartschool[cute](i failed my dutch test[disdain])

Waarom wil ik zelfmoord elke dag meer en meer plegen wtf(geen zorgen tis haram dus kan m ni doen)

Which one of yall reported me to wattpad support[weep]

I'm probably not gonna write again until school ends so sorry for the really slow updates[cry]

Why do I have a complicated relationship w my family one moment I absolutely despise them and the next I want to cry for yelling back at them but at the same time why did you have to slap me at such a young age especially if I made a small mistake or made them angry I almost twisted my finger and my head hurts from getting hit so much just because I got angry but they did make me have problems and I don't want to become like them I don't want to keep getting mad at my little brother and hit him for making even the tiniest mistake and I also don't want me and my brother to get that beating again from about 2/4 years ago that shit hurt so much just leave me alone for a day[weep]