UsedToBe606

Almost
          chilling close
          Almost
          I almost lost myself for the past few days or weeks...I forgot.
          but what scares me the most is...
          I love to be lost..
          lost from this life...lost from all
          lost within lost my senses 
          almost..
          almost..
          

Where are you?
          I miss for that man I love
          still love
          Its been a while since we last met
          I miss you so much
          so much it hurt
          I miss you my friend
          I really do
          for that warm companion
          with tight hug and happiness tears
          I missed you 
          my bro..my love...my bestfriend..my everything

I keep fixing others...while I abandon my own self dying...

love is a peculiar thing...given and taken...
          yet it was different from every other...
          and it comes down to which love to choose to keep..
          a love from someone who love you...
          or one that you love...
          and then love from family...would you choose love before family?
          or would you choose your love ?
          will you choose one you love but won't love you as much...or one who love you so much yet you just couldn't give your love to.....
          choices...yet they say love is unconditional...

I wanted to stop...stop feeling..
          stop feeling sad or down..
          stop feeling anything...
          I want it to stop..

family is annoying...true
          but they are true...
          we fight and disagree on things
          yet we love each other deeply
          and we know it 
          not by words. .but by action and instinct..
          family is true...and some are not by blood but by love.
          so be wise on choosing a family..
          once a family will always be family..
          as Lilo said...Ohana
          nobody gets left behind.

everyone deserve to love and be loved...
          regardless of their love preferences...
          let one love another...
          how sad it is to be denied of love..
          people don't need to like how it is
          just try to understand...
          even if you can't...don't deny love..
          let love be...
          please.

its embarrassing when one demand for special treatment when they only deserve so much...I feel for them...because I wanted so much more...yet I know how much so I deserve..accept of what it is...because it is what it is...acceptance...ignorance is bliss after all..

giving up..too tired..promises was just a word anyway..
          im giving up...goodbye.

too depress to feel depress..