You know how you mess up big time and you don't know how to fix it?
This is maybe the third night in a row that I'm crying myself to sleep because of something I did to a very good friend. Though I don't know if they'll ever wanna talk to me again after this. And it's gonna be my fault..
I had been getting really upset because we roleplay online, and I have a couple of other rp friends, and I haven't been getting very many replies from anyone. Maybe one a day from three people and one a week from another. (Rp's help me mentally because I'm not stuck with my own thoughts of depression and stuff like that) And I had been extremely moody and just really cranky all day and I said something that sounded like I was blaming my friend for not being able to rp. I never meant it like that and I didn't realize how harsh it sounded until after..
I got upset over something that I really shouldn't have and now I'm scared that I lost someone really important to me..
I haven't been able to be little and relax because I'm scared and I don't know what to do.. My mental health is absolutely horrible and I just wanna fix things..