Usernames-_-suck

hey chat .. 

Okay. So. I fake dated an online friend of mine as an April Fools prank on my irl friend. We started fake dating on Halloween and then said it was a prank on April Fools. We decided to plan ahead to make it more believable when the time came. Yknow? We fake broke up on my birthday cuz it's about a week before April first. 
          
          Throughout the time, I made sure my irl friend wasn't getting too emotionally invested n shit, asking him if he was alright and stuff like that.
          
          I thought it was a harmless joke, yknow? I know if he and an online friend were dating, broke up, and then said it was a prank, no one actually was hurt or anything, I'd be like "oh lmao you got me" so I figured it'd be kinda funny. 
          
          I didn't think it was going to be an issue, but for some reason it was. He called me a liar and a bitch, blocked me on everything, posted a few tiktoks about me, posted on his story calling me a snake, and then got mad at me for not trying to text his number. And when I did text his number apologizing, all he said was "no. fuck you." 
          
          I understand where he's coming from to an extent, and I'm trying to be more understanding. But I don't think that reaction is warranted. I didn't intend on hurting him, and then apologized four times for it. I really just thought it was gonna be a "haha funny joke" kinda reaction. But he keeps bringing it up to make me feel guilty, even after he told me not to bring up the time he broke my favorite pair of headphones. 
          
          Do I have this coming or no? 

If you spell choking like "chocking" ... Leave. Please. It's so horrible. 

Y'all ever read wholesome smut? Shit made me smile and for what? Like why? 

My favorite game; 
          
          Is she bleeding or is she just a wap 

YALL WATTPAD HOMOPHOBIC FR </333
          
          I WAS PUTTING PRIDE FLAGS IN TEXT FORMAT CUZ IDK IM BORED AND IT FUCKIN REBOOTED ITSELF AND WENT "Wattpad seemed to have stopped" 
          
          IM???

I am not gay 
          But let's be precise ☝
          Cuz if she pretty 
          Then watch her 
          Cuz imma be fuckin yo wife 
          /lyrics

Getting told to "stop being stupid" and "be optimistic" when I'm saying i wanna c0mmit and that i cant take the pressure of living anymore doesnt help. It makes me want to hit you. I hate you right now. But I'm not allowed to say that because that makes me "a bad friend" you're shit to go to when i want to vent. But when i dont go to you, you throw a tantrum. Fuck you. Fuck off. Im so tired. You arent helpful. And before you get high and mighty, you didnt "save me" fuck that. You didn't "stop me" from killing myself. The only fucking reasons im still breathing is because i hate the thought of my brother burying his closest sibling, and my mom will kick the dogs out if im gone. Be humble. You're an asshole. 

Y'know what i hate the most? 
          When im reading a story that's supposed to be a slow-burn type read, yeah? And then they confess in the 9th chapter out of 30. 
          Like- WHERE'S THE PINING??? THE DRAMA?? THE ANGST OF THINKING THE OTHER IS IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE??? THE FEELING OF LONELINESS CUZ ONE IS DRIFTING AWAY??? DONDE ESTÁS??? 
          If you're gonna write a story and it's set up to be a slow-burn. PLEASE. Dont do that. Dont make them kiss so fast. I beg of you. 

I-I-I'm with my twin, finna blow me a bag up in Neiman, then go cop a crib in Miami
          I'm only 14, but I'ma blow up and as soon as I do, I'ma get me a Grammy
          She told me that I am the GOAT, so I told her, "I know, baby girl", like do you understand me?
          She follow my IG, I followed her back then she came to my crib and she took off her panties
          She asked me like, "Tana, are you antisocial?" And I told her, "No, girl, I'm socially anti"