Is this what they call "karma"? I rejected not-so-alot of guys. But It feels awful at the same time flattering though it's just normal. I mean, it is part of life right? Being rejected? Being hurt? But as the one who hurts other people's feelings, I feel guilty. Because I reject them even though I don't also want to feel the same way. I know how it hurts. But I don't want to give them false hopes. I just want to make them happy without appreciating me that much. I just want to live in peace too. The thing is, I know karma haunts me because of that. I'm not sure. But after hurting some guys, when i like someone, I am also being hurt. Cause if they didn't love me back, or they just found me as the second choice. Their option. It hurts a lot to be like this. I'm sorry for everything. But I just want this pain to stop. It hurts like hell to be an option. To be played with.