VAPORDANCE

u all created my world and ended it, too. i love almost everything i’ve done on here (smut makes it an almost) and i would mever have done it without the people i met and loved. i met an amazing bud on here, i met so many amazing people that are probably off doing amazing things right now. this website changed my life and i like to think it changed it in a good way, although, who knows? u all are a wonderful bunch of people, creating (sometimes questionable) works of art. i can’t wait to see what u all become someday, ‘cause i’m certain it’s going to be absolutely wonderful. 
          	
          	no one comes on here anymore, and i’d deactivate the account, but i get very attached to things and i could never let this go. i get very sad when i think of all the memories i’ve made on here and all the people i met because, yknow, when will i ever get an experience like this again? 
          	
          	i used to be a helluva phannie, and then i shipped joshler, and both created me (although i regret all the smut i read about both). my books never got very far but i (like to believe i) became a better writer. from a phanfiction i met a girl i loved. from phan i met the only twelve year old i love. from joshler i, uh, became a fake emo. everything happened for a reason and im totally glad it did. 
          	
          	this got very messy very quickly and i just wanted to say (cue kazoo kid’s voice) “thanks”. it’s been a great ass experience and i wouldnt let this go for anything. 
          	
          	i love you all so much. 
          	
          	alright, this is bye from me.
          	
          	smell ya later nerdos
          	
          	~mango

Ms_Meg

@VAPORDANCE maggie i love you so much text me or dm me anytime tbh ill miss you on here though (and i regret being a phannie too oosh)
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idletown

dunno if u will see this but hbd again :]
          
          im so proud of u and im so glad ur still here ..
          ik we don't talk much and the conversations are very short when we do but ! i appreciate u and ur existence and ur impact on my life a lot !!
          
          mwah <3

idletown

@vapordance hey it's ok !! im just really glad we stayed in touch :(
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VAPORDANCE

@idletown LOVE U! im glad we are still in contact! out of everyone i'd still want to know from my wattpad era, u are #1 by far 
            
            THANX for the bday message youre way better than i (who completely forgot abt urs SORRYYYYYYYYYY </3)
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idletown

i miss u :(

idletown

OHMYGOGDAGHGERGGSSSWYAG
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VAPORDANCE

this message may be offensive 
hahghaghahgahghaghgahghahg haDAN HOWELL IM FUCKING CACKLING
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VAPORDANCE

i'd like to delete this because it sours an otherwise fond look back at my old wattpad days, but i think it's equally disingenuous to pretend this never happened. i can't even press the more replies button because i know whatever it is i've said there is unforgettably embarrassing. but anyway, to the void (and to me whenever i read this next), i really valued YOU ! (the person who wrote the original comment!) and our friendship, and to this day i'm still in the discord server we made just to chat with each other. manyland is shutting down soon and it makes me think of you, that server makes me think of you, wattpad makes me think of you. i guess that's the beauty of friendship :') you'll stick around in my memories forever.
            
            i'm always going to be a little salty we couldn't make up, because i think it could have happened if you'd wanted it a little bit more. maybe i resent you for it a little so i don't think as much about how i missed you all that time. but that's how it goes and that's how it is. i hope you're doing well! thank you, and i'm sorry!
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VAPORDANCE

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          thanks for posting this, dude. you’re definitely the bigger man (although the “faggy maggy” thing was a bit passive aggressive and uncalled for lmao) and if you still wanna reconnect, hmu on instagram or discord or i mean i think you have my phone # too. 
          
          also sorry for this INSANELY long&emo message, i’m trying 2 sound cooler than i am ykno
          
          :-) 
          
          @belovedmaz

VAPORDANCE

this message may be offensive 
(1/2)
          
          i used to have constant regrets about how our final conversation went down. 
          
          our argument was mostly based on me being dumb and deciding to take the opposing “nice” stance (the “devil’s advocate”) despite the fact that it didn’t really represent my actual opinions. i am also a stubborn bitch sometimes (often) so i had 2 keep pushing it. although i do believe the overarching message of my stance still has some truth to it (it’s unfair to make fun of some people’s feelings abt themselves as, in the past, there were other minorities made fun of for their stuff too), i also understand that i really shouldn’t have even tried to argue my opinion considering i can only view it from an outsider’s point of view rather than you, who’s experienced it firsthand. 
          
          anyway, i appreciate your message a LOT. you have no idea how much i’ve literally had dreams about us reconnecting (it’s dumb, but depressingly true!!) and i’ve definitely had feelings of remorse and regret for how our friendship ended. 
          
          however, that was months ago. i’ve moved on, stored our friendship in the “sad but whtever” folder in my head. it was an unfortunate event but it happened and i’ve let it go. 
          
          what i’m trying to say is that i don’t want to reconnect with the you from our past friendship. it took me a LONG time to move on, and i don’t think i want to disrupt the carefully stored memories. that was an era of my life and personality that i don’t really wanna touch.
          
          but i’m willing to make a new friend. so if !!! we start talking again, i’d prefer it not to be just like a continuation of our last friendship. i let go of the old milo/ethan/max, and i mean i assume you did too. 
          
          so i’m open to us chatting! i think it’d be nice, albeit probably awkward and painful. but i think it’d be better if we treated it like something new. obviously i don’t mean we shouldn’t reflect on past stuff but i also don’t really wanna associate the present with the painful past.