I want you to love me...I don't understand why I want you to want me...why I want you to hold me...kiss me...I honestly feel like I'm playing myself...I mean there's absolutely no way that somebody as amazing as you would.want to be with a nothing like me...when you call me gorgeous or adorable I believe you but then I look in the mirror and wonder...what is it that you could possibly see in me...how can I look so beautiful to you...lately I've been thinking more and more about you and we’re so close to being an actual couple but at the same time I feel like I'm going to wake up and everything will be gone...you make me feel so wanted and cherished...and I love feeling that way...but I'm so scared...scared to finally wake up and realize that you've just been a fantasy and that feeling will be gone….there's nothing I wouldn't do for you and all your have to do is ask even if...even if you ask me to leave you alone...I would...just writing this makes me lose that feeling you give me and it scared me...I don't want to feel lonely anymore and if you're just gone one day I'll probably shrink back down into the depths of depression...when I'm like that, I scare myself...please don't go...I feel safe and wanted when we cuddle and when you walk me home I feel loved...our sweet kisses goodbye when I'm at the bottom of my stairs...the way you look at me how your gaze is gentle and soft...the way you caress my cheek when you look into my eyes...I hope you don't disappear...I really like you and I want to be with you...I want to hear you call me baby and I would love for us to have matching couples rings...it's something I've always wanted, that feeling of...nevermind...I want you and it terrifies me...because I'm afraid that you won't want me anymore...
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Thinking about this being a chapter