Monique

Forget this. I'm going to get off this forever. I'm still a larrie but I'm sure I'm done writing Larry fics. Sorry. Anxiety is getting too much. 

I'm depressed as ever but since it's been so long that I've written my two only successful fics on here. I'm going to try and rewrite them. So as much as it pains me, I'm unpublishing my children so I can make them more better, more updated. They'll carry the same concepts and characters as before…maybe. I just want them to be more mature, I was a few years younger then and I barely knew what type of writer I wanted to be. I was just going with the flow and not following my heart. They'll still be Larrie, because that is how I wrote them to begin with and they'll stay that way. Just know that I'm doing because I care and I want to be better. I'm going to try and push my depression and anxiety out of my mind so I can get these fics published and out of the way of future fics. Yes, future fics, I'm trying to bring my old self back and bring more to the table. I hope it's not too late to start anew.

I can't even text people. Social Phobia

Wish I wasn't depressed. Wish I at least had the motivation to write again.

Terribly sorry for all the things I said I was going to, but didn't do. I'm a busy personal and also an emotional one, it's hard to balance the things I love to do (writing) and things I hate. Because, alas the things I hate have to be the most important.

I got bronchitis...ain't nobody got time for dat...

It's so hard to keep focus on that one thing that is keeping me intact with the inspiration for me to keeping writing. But hopefully I can put The Cat's Meow to an end, because it's been almost two years since I've started it and as much as I love it, it needs to be finished so I can start on the present and work on more mature works. Which, I have two planned out. Not written completely yet, just mapping out of what I'm going for in the plots. Music has been helping me through whatever funk I'm in. With college nearing and senior year progressing and sports coming to a start, I barely have time to sleep. Praying to whatever god will assist me in my motivation for all of this.

I'm that type person to have 5 years planned a head. Not even joking.

Don't know if I should get an I tunes card or save up for Made In the Am. (Lol, jk, I'm saving up for 1D).

Talking to my therapist is the highlight of my week.