I can't explain it, I just feel so full and it ever so slightly aches in thrill. It feels warm and I can feel my heart beat. I feel happy, completed but not quite. Like this is something I needed, I feel accomplished and relaxed. Like there's nothing in the world to worry about, and I feel that if I just started to cry at this very moment in time I would love it. Every second of it, my kidney aches but it's fine even if it feels like I'm being stabbed. I can breathe and I feel so sleepy. It's perfect. How when I close my eyes I can fall asleep but the music won't allow me to. As if I can trust it to keep me awake.