Vanilla Dilla96

I really hate myself right now. I become more distressed. I need someone to talk to. But I really hate to show people I'm weak. 
          
          Its suck. 
          
          *Kind of left this note for me to read it again later in my life. 
          *mini diary*

Sudden urge to vomit
          Never did I have experience this kind of stress.
          
          I hate myself now that I'm easily annoyed. 
          I hate myself now that I talked less with my friends. 
          I hate myself now that I'm not aware with my friends feeling. 

I miss my old self. 
          The "what ever they said. I don't care" self .
          The "I volunteer for presenting" self. 
          The "I will do what I want" self. 
          
          Now I'm just folded in my own anxiety. 
          
          Afraid of voicing my opinion. 
          Afraid of making mistake. 
          And worst
          Afraid of seeing the 'outside' world.

Second day in hospital for clerking patient. My history taking still can't runs smoothly. Although this is only my second case. 
          
          I feel so distress... 

IDOL IS A LIT!! 

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