VanillaIce23

One of my cats died. He was only a year old. I'm sorry for not updating I just am lacking ideas. If anyone you want to help me or have ideas message me.

Im sorry for those who are reading my books. I am feeling lack of ideas and just want to give up. I want to finished something for once but I can't. I just feel like my creativity is being lost and that my stories are becoming dull. I want to get better but my thoughts are getting dimmer. My family says all the thugs I can do can be just a hobby. I want to find a job I like but I can't when others say I can't. My parents are taking away all my comfortable (baggy) clothing and saying others will judge them for what I wear. I see there point but they want me to wear nice clothes and makeup. I don't like makeup and it's too much. It's like they don't want to accept me or what I like. I feel selfish when I talk about myself. I've been judged my whole life. I've given up what the world thinks but it hurts when my family tries and make me different. My twin can be nice when she wants to but a lot of times she ends up hurting me and I can't do anything. I'm weak and when I'm in pain my siblings laugh. Most times my parents don't notice what I go through. My friends are the only ones encouraging me to continue but now I feel that's not enough. The world is a lonely place isn't it?

I'm thinking about quitting writing...

Does anyone notice when a cloud disappears. In sight yet still invisible by others. A ghost that only animals can sense. A broken heart tries to love yet nothing comes. A used toy everyone hates. Something to make fun of behind its back. The smile so believable and the eyes ignored by the common truth. So hurt you want to be alone, no one seems to care. They only notice the disappearance when they want you. Used and thrown then used again. No one cares about this battered rag doll. The feeling I hold daily, my failure of being a writer, a failure of being an artist. Can't take pictures without a nice camera. All my talents useless, my love for animals fades to what? I hurt I was
          Not to scream but no one will notice. Help someone, please. Wait never mind others please of help are much to loud. I wish to help yet no one sees, what useless I am. Why am I here, who am I. Cold, so cold and lonely. All I want is love and acceptance but I get none. No one cares.

I'm sorry everyone for not updating any books... You know how it is, school started and stress, pressure and sleepiness over takes me these days. I'll be trying to update every so often so try to be nice. I'm not really in a good mood right now so yeah... Anyway I added a book, missing stars... Hope you like it