Karen V

Today was a hard day.
          
          Sometimes it's so easy to get caught up in the past. Everything that we did wrong, what we could've done better, the people we've left behind, the reason behind our mistakes.
          
          All those mistakes.
          
          We are so much more than our mistakes.
          
          It's normal to reflect on the past, but when is it time to move on? Moving on can be challenging. For me personally, it was one of the hardest things I've done in my life. You look back at yourself and think of all the things you could done better. I could've been so much better at socializing if I had just been myself, if my emotions didn't get the better of me, if I stopped fabricating a fake persona to match someone else's, if I stopped worrying about what other people said or thought, if I just accepted some friendships weren't meant to last.
          
          These thoughts are normal, but what do they all have in common? They're all in the past tense. Instead of dreading the past, how does it shape who we are in the present? Part of life is changing; we can't change if we have nothing to build off of. Some people might know you for who you were then instead of who you are now. Some are shallow and refuse to acknowledge the concept of change. If someone's only opinion on you is based off something that happened years ago, what does that say about you now? Nothing. The only person who can shape you is you. Are you going to continue being that person from years ago, or build from that foundation?
          
          The past is only one part of you, the part of you that helps you learn. Despite that, you are so much more than the past.
          
          Remember this on the harder days ♥️♥️

*Shattered update*
          
          shattered has been back up on Wattpad for a while now, but I have definitely taken a bit of a break from writing. School has been kicking my ass and with theater becoming more active, it's been harder for me to find time to write. I will do my best to keep on updating, but if things continue to go slow, I'll continue to post progress updates here on Wattpad.

Shattered has been taken off public and I have currently moved it over to draft. The reason for this? I planned on sharing this story piece by piece, but I recently made major changes to the story and characters, and I don't want to upload anything new until I have gotten Shattered to where I want it. Until I am done editing, the story will remain as a draft, but will be published again eventually :DD

Ya'll I FINALLY finished the draft of shattered chapter one!!!  You can probably expect that up in a week :DDD

My life is literally so organized:
          
          So my school musical finally finished, which means I finally get more time to write. In the span of November to March, I'm only halfway done with the DRAFT of shattered and i still don't even know what the moral of the story is yet lol. Not to mention the auditions for my schools next production are tomorrow and I have a completely knew story idea I wanna start, I think I might need a schedule

Lmao writing a story is hard ;_;
          
          I really trapped myself in a bubble I have so much crap I want to fit into this single story yet how do you figure out how to get from start to end I have no idea. Shattered sure is a fun project but damn I didn't think that the outline alone would take me three months lol. Expect an update on it in five years ig

Merry Christmas to all who celebrate!!!! ☺️☺️☃️⭐

*Small update on shattered*
          
          So I have been working on Shattered quite a bit recently, but one thing I've realized is that I uploaded the prologue WAY to early. What I mean by this is that I don't have all the planning done, I don't have any idea what direction I'm going in with the characters, heck, I don't even know what I'm gonna do with the first chapter. So yeah, I definitely rushed a bit trying to get the first part out into the world, so the wait for any updates might be a little longer than expected.  BUT, winter break is just around the corner (happy holidays btw), meaning that I won't have to deal with all the crap that school has been giving me for an entire week! This means more time to write 
          
          No promises on anything coming out soon though, in case you can't tell, my life has been a bit of a mess  .__.

Literally the most upsetting thing on the planet is when you audition for an all state choir, and everyone else in your school gets in except you. I've always been self conscious of my voice cause imma be honest, everyone else in my grade is vocal trained and I'm not. Everyone else sounds infinitely better but I literally only auditioned for this because my teacher said she thought Id be a really good candidate, and I knew I wasn't gonna make it in since I've never had proper training, but when everyone else makes it it kinda just hurts idk im kinda rambling at this point.
          
          It doesn't help that all my friends make fun of me and insult my voice all the time so yeah that doesn't make me feel better either 
          
          Imma talk to my teacher about this tmr and I'm just praying she has something positive to say, but I doubt it .

Thx for the follow lovely