Railend's Venting Space

Gosh I’m so worried about alex… the doctors can’t so shit and I care about her so much… when I see her crying and In so much pain.. I just want to take her pain and have me in that pain then her… it worries me so much… I just wish the pain wasn’t that bad for her and the amount of homework she’s gonna have… it’s horrible..

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          darn... why am i so annoying? thats why people ignore me. Im such a d2mn attention seeker. And feel horrible when no one gives me attention. I suck. I just want to be able not to talk to people to feel okay. But no its the opposite. I have to to talk to people to feel better or ill just get stuck in my d1mn head the whole time.. And I just... I dont know.... I just wanna cry my eyes out... but nooo, people will wake up. UGH S3REW THIS. stupid mumbling while I cry...... 
          stupid mom...
          stupid step-dad.
          STUPID KC
          STUPID ZARI
          STUPID JERSEY 
          STUPID SARAH
          STUPID DESTINY
          STUPID NOAH
          STUPID PEOPLE WHO HAVE BETRAYED ME. 
          YOU ALL SUCK. YOU ALL ARE HORRIBLE TO ME. I HATE YOU.... IM SO D3MN GULLIBLE THAT IM SO D4MN BLIND TO FAKE FRIENDSHIPS!! WHY! KC YOU WERE MY FAMILY MEMBER. ZARI I TRUSTED YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. MOM WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME. STEP-DAD YOUR SO MEAN. SARAH I HATE YOU FOR LYING TO ME ALL THE TIME. NOAH YOU STUPID PERSON YOU LIED SO MUCH. DESTINY I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU USED ME AND LIED SO MUCH. JERSEY YOU WERE A FAKE FRIEND AND ADMITTED IT.  - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 
          
          Z and K is not a pretty "number" 
          
          A, R, M, A, and T are definitely better....

Not me kinda wanting to be a cg, but like Idk how good I would be... I just kinda wanna help yk? Or just something? Like, its kinda hard to find one well for me it is, and mainly ig Ash is too. But I have no idea. I just, I don't know, honestly I think about it quite a bit before but yet I will go back to that question, I don't know how good i'll be for that.... 
          Also, i barely go on here but eh.

Not me worrying that i can't talk to Ash the whole time im at my dads this weekend- Nope- Totally wasn't-
          Like :( 
          
          I just wanna hear his voice :( 
          He makes me so happpyy :D
          And I love hearing his voice! His voice is wonderful :]
          And hes amazing! :D
          I don't know why hes insecure (or whatev)  because hes perfect in my eyes :DD
          Hes just wonderful! :) 
          
          I just don't wanna leave him :( 
          What i mean is when i go to north scott, and if i live with my mom still I wont be able to talk to him that much- (with how my mom is) 
          and I just want to be able to talk to him a lot, but i mean i could just go whereever i want and meet up with him and hangout with him when i am able to drive :D
          Like maybe we could go to i don't know the movies? Or a park or something-
          Not me planning things in this- Or kinda planning things in this writing- 
          But it would be amazingg!! 
          
          (Also Ash, I think your eyes are wonderful, they aren't big for your face, they go perfectly with your wonderfully beautiful/handsome face <3)

Well now. Just wonderful. THEY GOT RID OF MY BLUETOOTH!!! LIKE WHAT THE HECK?! HOW- WHY?! (well I kinda know why-) BUT STILL- I WASN'T EVEN USING IT!!! LIKE THE HECK!? IT WAS JUST 'on' And NOTHING was connected to it. SO WHAT THE FC-UK PEOPLE!!!!!