Vermillion

Crying again like a little bitch cuz Im still alive despite being a piece of shit waste of space...

Really wish to know when I will die so I can have something to look forward to...

Its new year but if anything i feel worse than the previous year...
          
          Damn it suck...

Here again to vent... Pathetic as always...
          
          Fuck i fucking suck...
          
          Wish i could just disappeared...

Feeling down tonight... Crying like a bitch when theres a lot of worse shit happening around the world... Fuck i suck... Wish i can reverse time... Back to the old days... Days when i remember the feeling of happiness... The feeling of not hating myself... The feeling of wanting to live...

Life's a pain and the only way out is death...
          
          I envy those who have the courage to end it...

Love yarself so no one have to
          
          But what if yar so hateful that the one ya hate is yarself...?

Maybe its the stress talkin' but i hope i get corona virus and die

If I can have one wish to be granted would be erasing my existence that way it would be easier for both me and people around me :)

One month ago... What most important to me is taken away from me... I can't even... I don't even have the will for living anymore...