VeronicaPusta

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I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM SO MUCH. SO FUCKING MUCH. I JUST ANT TO DIE I FUCKING WANT TO DIE. THEY THINK I'M OVERREACTING JUST BECAUSE HEY TOOK MY PHONE? WELL NEWS FLASH, IT FUCKING ISN'T THE REASON WHY I'M "OVERREACTING". THEY NEVER SEE MY ACHIEVEMENTS. THEY'RE SO UNFAIR. JUST BECAUSE THEY'RE OLDER DOESN'T THEY HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I'M HAVING TRUST ISSUES AND DEPRESSION BECAUSE OF THEM. I CAN'T EVEN TELL MOM NA MAY BF AKO KASI I KNOW SHE WILL BE MAD AND I KNOW SHE'S STRICT. SHE'LL ALWAYS LIKE THAT. I CAN NVEVER BE HAPPY WITH THEM. AND WHENEVER I FUCKING ACTUALLY AM, IT'LL ONLY JUST BE WORSE A MOMENT LATER. THEY KEEP BOSSING ME AROUND LIKE I'M THEIR HOUSEMAID. I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING HAPPY. CAN'T THEY TAKE A HINT THAT MY PHONE IS THE ONLY THING THAT'S KEEPING ME EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY STABLE???? CAN'T THEY TAKE A HINT THAT WHENEVER I'M WITH MY FRIENDS IT FEELS MORE LIKE HOME THAN WHAT I FEEL WHEN I'M WITH MY FAMILY?? I FEEL SO TRAPPED. SO CONTROLLED. SO USED. I JUST WANT TO DIE. AND WHEN I HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN, SAYING WHAT I ACTUALLY FEEL, THEY DON'T MAKE EVEN A SINGLE FUCKING EFFORT TO CHANGE THEMSELVES. AND THE AUDACITY TO GUILT TRIP ME INTO THINKING THAT I WAS IN THE WRONG. LIKE WHAT DID I EVEN DO?? WHAT'S SO WRONG ABOUT HANGING ON TO SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL ACTUAL JOY?? I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I KNOW WHEN TO EAT, SLEEP, AND WAKE UP BUT NOOOO THEY JUST HAD TO TAKE THE ONLY THING THAT'S KEEPING ME MENTALLY STABLE. AND WHEN MOM ASKS KUYA TO DO SOMETHING, KUYA JUST PASSES IT TO ME LIKE NOTHING. AND GUESS WHAT? MOM DOESN'T EVEN CARE. THEY KEEP SAYING IT'S BECAUSE THEY'RE TIRED OR IT'S BECAUSE THEY'RE OLDER. THE FUCK??? I'M TIRED TOO. I'M DEALING WITH A LOT OF THINGS THAT THEY DON'T KNOW OF. SCHOOL, STRESS, TRUST ISSUES, DEPRESSION, LOVE LIFE. WELL, MAYBE NOT LOVE LIFE. BUT I'M TIRED TOO.

VeronicaPusta

TIRED OF EVERYTHING. EVEN WHEN THEY CAN'T SEE IT. EVEN WHEN I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING. THAT'S WHAT I HATE OF BEING A KID. I HATE MYSELF. AND MOM SAYS I SHOULD STOP COMPARING MYSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE WHEN SHE'S DOING IT TOO. I HATE IT WHEN THEY DO THAT. ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY TALK BAD ABOUT ME. BECAUSE IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT IT'S TRUE. LIKE I KNOW I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR PRETTY YOU DON'T HAVE TO REMIND ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN. MY PHONE AND MY FRIENDS ARE THE ONLY ONES I CAN VENT TO. EVEN IF THEY GIVE BAD ADVICE. BUT I'M NOT SAYING I DON'T APPRECIATE THEIR EFFORT JUST TO KEEP THE FAMILY ALIVE. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT. I JUST WANT THEM TO LET ME DO THINGS I WANT TO ENJOY. I REALLY HOPE THEY UNDERSTAND. BUT I DOUBT IT.
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VeronicaPusta

this message may be offensive 
I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM SO MUCH. SO FUCKING MUCH. I JUST ANT TO DIE I FUCKING WANT TO DIE. THEY THINK I'M OVERREACTING JUST BECAUSE HEY TOOK MY PHONE? WELL NEWS FLASH, IT FUCKING ISN'T THE REASON WHY I'M "OVERREACTING". THEY NEVER SEE MY ACHIEVEMENTS. THEY'RE SO UNFAIR. JUST BECAUSE THEY'RE OLDER DOESN'T THEY HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I'M HAVING TRUST ISSUES AND DEPRESSION BECAUSE OF THEM. I CAN'T EVEN TELL MOM NA MAY BF AKO KASI I KNOW SHE WILL BE MAD AND I KNOW SHE'S STRICT. SHE'LL ALWAYS LIKE THAT. I CAN NVEVER BE HAPPY WITH THEM. AND WHENEVER I FUCKING ACTUALLY AM, IT'LL ONLY JUST BE WORSE A MOMENT LATER. THEY KEEP BOSSING ME AROUND LIKE I'M THEIR HOUSEMAID. I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING HAPPY. CAN'T THEY TAKE A HINT THAT MY PHONE IS THE ONLY THING THAT'S KEEPING ME EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY STABLE???? CAN'T THEY TAKE A HINT THAT WHENEVER I'M WITH MY FRIENDS IT FEELS MORE LIKE HOME THAN WHAT I FEEL WHEN I'M WITH MY FAMILY?? I FEEL SO TRAPPED. SO CONTROLLED. SO USED. I JUST WANT TO DIE. AND WHEN I HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN, SAYING WHAT I ACTUALLY FEEL, THEY DON'T MAKE EVEN A SINGLE FUCKING EFFORT TO CHANGE THEMSELVES. AND THE AUDACITY TO GUILT TRIP ME INTO THINKING THAT I WAS IN THE WRONG. LIKE WHAT DID I EVEN DO?? WHAT'S SO WRONG ABOUT HANGING ON TO SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL ACTUAL JOY?? I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I KNOW WHEN TO EAT, SLEEP, AND WAKE UP BUT NOOOO THEY JUST HAD TO TAKE THE ONLY THING THAT'S KEEPING ME MENTALLY STABLE. AND WHEN MOM ASKS KUYA TO DO SOMETHING, KUYA JUST PASSES IT TO ME LIKE NOTHING. AND GUESS WHAT? MOM DOESN'T EVEN CARE. THEY KEEP SAYING IT'S BECAUSE THEY'RE TIRED OR IT'S BECAUSE THEY'RE OLDER. THE FUCK??? I'M TIRED TOO. I'M DEALING WITH A LOT OF THINGS THAT THEY DON'T KNOW OF. SCHOOL, STRESS, TRUST ISSUES, DEPRESSION, LOVE LIFE. WELL, MAYBE NOT LOVE LIFE. BUT I'M TIRED TOO.

VeronicaPusta

TIRED OF EVERYTHING. EVEN WHEN THEY CAN'T SEE IT. EVEN WHEN I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING. THAT'S WHAT I HATE OF BEING A KID. I HATE MYSELF. AND MOM SAYS I SHOULD STOP COMPARING MYSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE WHEN SHE'S DOING IT TOO. I HATE IT WHEN THEY DO THAT. ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY TALK BAD ABOUT ME. BECAUSE IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT IT'S TRUE. LIKE I KNOW I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR PRETTY YOU DON'T HAVE TO REMIND ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN. MY PHONE AND MY FRIENDS ARE THE ONLY ONES I CAN VENT TO. EVEN IF THEY GIVE BAD ADVICE. BUT I'M NOT SAYING I DON'T APPRECIATE THEIR EFFORT JUST TO KEEP THE FAMILY ALIVE. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT. I JUST WANT THEM TO LET ME DO THINGS I WANT TO ENJOY. I REALLY HOPE THEY UNDERSTAND. BUT I DOUBT IT.
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