I'm a bit of a bipolar. Not too bad, not too good. Just plain old normal. I'm usually loud, but at most I like quiet surroundings. I like being with someone, or with my friends or families. But I love being alone. 

I talk to myself about stuffs I couldn't tell anyone, I cry alone when I think they can't understand me much to comfort me. I don't prevent myself from getting hurt. I like it when I'm in pain, it makes me realize I'm still alive.

I look back at the good memories I've made with people I love when I'm thinking that I should kill myself and die. I like mysteries. I'm quite interested in murder or suicide cases. I'm not afraid of the dark, but I'm afraid of ghosts. 

I'm not the usual type of girl who chooses to be in her safe zone. I wear for comfort not style. I voice out my words and act all my feelings. 

I wanna be someone who can be strong and weak at the same time. Can live and die. 

If I live, I'll die. But if I die, I'll live.