My ears ring,
My ear bleed,
My brain cries,
My body’s weak.
Why do I exist,
Why do I bring annoyance,
To everyone I interact with
Will know me as
Something.
The sounds cage me in
as I plead to leave the past behind
Yet it comes back for more
And more
And more until I break at the seems and cry
with no plan to stop
With no plan to get better
With no plan to figure out why
Why
Why do I do this everyday?
Do I ever think;
Why truly, I think all the time.
How can I make a change
To my body and to the world
Dreamy nights I see filled with blue sky’s
And in those sky’s I dream to reach a place
too high for me
Too much for me
The noises
The annoying noises,
will I ever escape them?
Will I ever be just like Blue,
can I die having true hope in changing the world?