VioletHole99

Hope you all are doing well!
          
          This is not the “comeback” chapter I wanted, but I’m at a point now where I just need to move on and get out as many chapters as I can before my baby is born. I’ll go back and edit later. I plan on editing the full book anyway.
          
          I’m aware that this is an emotionally intense chapter. It was supposed to be balanced with another more fun and intimate scene with Landon and Riley. But it ended up being 60 pages!! So I had to make this into a standalone chapter. Not satisfied with it, but oh well, time to move on.
          
          This is important so please read before starting the chapter:
          As we get closer to the middle of the book, Riley’s trauma with Ryan that I’ve seeded throughout is slowly surfaced.
          I tried to be considerate and sensitive about it, while also being real and honest. There is a flashback in this chapter that is graphic. Please be careful.
          Things that have been alluded to are becoming much more apparent and they will increasingly over time. I will leave a trigger warning at the top of the chapter. 
          
          I think you guys will really enjoy the two chapters after this one. There’s a lot of lighthearted, funny and sexy moments. 
          

Just checking in. Hope you all are well and I miss my friends on here!
          I’m sorry I haven’t been checking in or speaking to anyone. I’ve gradually spiraled myself into this horrible anxiety/perfectionism cycle and haven’t even been able to open wattpad. Still trying to come out of it.
          I want to let my readers know that The Last Fix is NOT an abandoned project and will be finished. I know everything that happens from beginning to end and I’ve actually written a good amount of the book already.
          My primary issue has been that it’s very overwritten and I just haven’t had the discipline lately to make myself sit down and edit it. It’s a lot to sort through.
          Not to mention, I’m pregnant and have been feeling too shitty to make myself do anything more than go to work and then lay in bed when I get home. It’s made it hard to focus.
          
           I’ve had the next two chapters ready for months and they ended up being 55 pages!
          Not only that, but I ended up rewriting the end of chapter 14 multiple times. Landon and Riley have an intense and spicy moment and I had to decide how far I could take it without fucking up the trajectory of the rest of the book.
          There was originally going to be nothing happening, but I figured by page 200ish there should be payoff for the readers while still keeping things believable and without deviating from Riley’s arc.
          Anyway, I plan on getting these out as soon as I don’t feel like I’m on my deathbed.

At work and there’s a Fleetwood Mac cover playing over the intercom right now. 
          
          First of all, how DARE you…

This chapter was a fucking ALBATROSS. AN ALBATROSS I TELL YOU!!!
          
          Not to be dramatic or anything.
          
          I know it needs a lot of editing. I know there’s a lot of problems. I know there’s a lack of cohesiveness and continuity in some areas from me picking it up and putting it down so many times. I know the pacing needs work, but I just have to submit it and move past it before I lose my got-damn MIND. I’ll have to get back to it later. Gotta keep going!
          
          I actually, literally, PHYSICALLY can’t reread it anymore. My brain won’t absorb the words, so I apologize in advance if it’s a hot mess lol
          
          Next chapter, we get some Meadow lore and a Landon scene I’m really looking forward to. One of those kinda “giggle and kick your feet” chapters. 
          Already drafted, just gotta write it out.
          
          Happy to be back. Missed you guys!

Thought work was going to be closed today because of the weather (have not seen ONE CAR on the road) and was hoping I would get to my reads and new chapter upload today but NOPE. gotta work AND all my coworkers called out. Yay!!
          
          

Megannnn! I sent you a DM on booksie but I'm not sure if you saw it. I've been trying to reach you so you can join Tally and I's writing server on discord!! A lot of wp mutuals are on there and we all miss you. Let me know if you're interested we would love to have you <3 <3

Hope you guys are well and happy new year!
          
          Just a quick update:
          
          I know I REALLY suck and I’m a slacker. 
          Holidays in retail has kicked my ass and I’m just drained in every sense. Also got some of those seasonal blues going on and can barely muster answering ANYONE, much less popping in on here.
          
          I also keep going back and fine-tuning old chapters even though I said I wouldn’t until it was finished. And it’s been very time consuming. Maybe it’s my way of procrastinating but telling myself I’m not.
          
          Anyway, I plan on being more active on here and getting back to my R4R stories and friends.
          
          Hope you guys had a great Christmas. Miss you.

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Chapter 11 is out. This one ended up longer than intended.
          See trigger warnings in the “before you read”

Apparently I say some variation of “fuck” 80 times in my novel so far. 
          Interesting.