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TW!!!
I dont now how much more I can fucking stand my stepdad, my dad, this town, the whole fucking country. I should have convinced my grandparents to take me to england with them. My stepdad is a drunk and he was yelling at my mom, and it ended with him bleeding, my mom sobbing and me thinking my mom was about to just fucking leave me. I cant fucking stand this place anymore and I truley wish that someday somthing would kill me. I want a car to hit me, a school shooting, a fucking house fire in the middle of the night, I dont care anymore. I cant do it myself, I just cant. Im too much of a damn coward to, and it makes me go insane. I dont want to kill myself, but god damn it I dont want to be alive anymore