Like that doesn’t already hurt?? You said you wanted me to be mad didn’t you? Just tell me what you want me to say. I get it I really do but I’m hurt and angry and nauseous. And you still didn’t say it.
This Whole conversation sucks.. I feel like I was just convenient- do you want a family with me or do you just want a family? We don’t have to rush. We have our whole lives. But I can’t bend on this. I cannot provide that life for you right now. I want to once I’m able. But you’ve got to give me a little more time
Oh my God I’m such an absolute piece of shit. Oh my God. Shit. Shit shit shit. I just make shit worse. The fucking cars. We’ve got enough shit going on without me screwing shit I’m such an idiot. She was having a bad enough day and I make it worse. Fuck me