Selenophile Star

So yeah I decided to come back and finish my fics even if it's just practice and nobody gonna read them. 
          I'm not really into posting in any social platforms but I try to stay active in posting here! 
          

Hey guy! I don't think anyone remembers me; it's been 5 years since I published a finished fanfic and an incompleted one and then unpublished both to make them better. And three yrs since my last post , I disappeared into thin air. 
          Every time I wanted to finish them, life has been such a shitty rollercoaster these past years. 
          Now I'm finally in Canada studying literature and Creative Writing. BOI, Rereading my writings makes me cringe to the bone! I feel so embarrassed and feel so bad for my native English readers. They were my first writings in English. There are SO many grammar, punctuation, and spelling errors, and I'm not even perfect yet. So much to fix aside from finishing the story! If my professor saw them instead of my today's writings, I'd been kicked out of class and university on the first day. 
          But I always wanted to finish them. You know when you bond with something and leaving them undone makes you feel bad? That is how I felt all this time. And I even started a Levi x reader when I was under pressure for the university entrance exam, lol.
          So anyway, I was wondering if it was worth finishing. Would anyone even read it? Would anyone read the short stories I write for my class? Should I complete my fanfics? 
          
          Your answers would mean a lot to me.
          See you around.

So I finally got the time to finish the tmnt 2012 and start my rewriting and i feel like all my childhood has burnt out with this series... at first was splinter and then that damned episodes even if it had a happy ending but it was sooo bitter and unbearable that i just noticed my tears are falling uncontrollably, I can’t believe what they did to the series Leo raph and everyone....April and Casey are dead and i just can’t endure it.... my childhood...character i grew up to believe in to get attached to...I can’t handle this...it’s so dark so unfair....I mean...accepting events in anime or AOT is much easier cause you’re use to it ....but...I Just....don’t know ....my heart aches from what had happened....I’m soo lost...

Have you ever been in that situation that you really feel like a drug addicted person whom ran outta drug? Right now I’m like that I’m so busy with music and learning stuff that I haven’t been able too write one word and i truly feel like crying and screaming i need to smoke and take my drug 

No one really knows me I never post or talk but i just wanted to post this to calm down a bit. 
          I HATE BEING A SENIOR!! I HATE STUDYING FOR ENTRANCE EXAM AND SHORT FORM TESTS BEFOR IT!! HOW THE HELL am I supposed to SURVIVE till next summer without reading or writing?!! WITHOUT MAKING PUZZLES OR ROLEPLAY?! I want to finish that cursed tmnt sister story!! I have so many ideas for stories and no time

Ah I'm getting crazy next week I start school and in this whole summer I couldn't find a good idea for short story or a poem to write for school competition I really need something to write about society problems something spring
          Someone help

Thanks  it's kind of you, I love Nightwatcher name
          So what should I do now?

I'm really bored i want to post the next chapter of my story but I'm too lazyanyone have any idea what should I do 
          Tmnt Rp?

Hay I was wondering if you would like to read my story I think you like it and it mean a lot to me you read it I been trying to get ppl to read mine so can u? Its ok if no

I'm really really really bored