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I can feel the violent urge to shake Bela while he looks at me with such a shit-eating grin and that eyes that only says nothing but insults at my direction for real on god.

Guess who is writing an indulgent story for my fandom-related OC.

Came back from the dead, and I am still dead either way.
          
          But I'm wondering whether to put purely indulgent stories here with fandom OCs, which I am more focused on than my OCs for my main work... I still like writing the main work, but it also does not give me the best memories so I am holding it off as long as possible.
          
          So there is that, nothing much happened in all honesty.

Mental health probably declining but I definitely have the condensed stubborness of my whole ass family to give in to it so- Just tiredly telling it to fuck off.
          
          Still doing the one work I published though, no worries.

Hmm, y'know what, I wonder if I should continue on another project since that one reeks of something that I genuinely dislike.
          
          This is probably why I prefer keeping some things to myself in case things go awry.

At this point, it's already problematic if I say that whatever I ended up doing, I ended up hating it so much that I wanted to destroy it- As well as erasing it from everything. 
          
          Like everything.
          
          Well, it's just a stupid feeling so I'll let it slide and not bother me, it's getting annoying at this rate.

Not me wanting to dig my grave until I uploaded a book cover for Journey to the Unknowns, but I might get over that emotion soon enough, I'll worry about the story after I completed it- Then I'll edit it like crazy perhaps.

How many times did I rewrite my work? I don't know but at this state, gonna try to at least fit it with the flow of where my head at right now, oh lordie.

OMG NICERU!!

HOLA AMIGO IT'S CIANE (SHAWN)