✶Max✶

*spawning* 
          Hellu, I just spawn here to wish you an awesome dayy <333 and a bit sparks of luck and a lot of hugs <33 (don't ask where I'm coming from, or why I'm here.. there's no answer for that :33 ✨✨✨)

Sorry. God, I'm so sorry. I hate myself for just venting and venting and venting and all this shit. I hate myself for it. None of you have to respond, you can even just ignore it. I'm just doing this for myself. Just getting some of it out so I don't like explode or smth lol.

I'm sorry I feel so horrible, I keep ignoring all of you and not responding and I'm so sorry. I just feel like shit. I feel so unloved and I know it's stupid because you're all being so nice and giving me reassurance but for some reason I just can't believe it. I just want to feel better already, I hate this feeling. I know I'm a horrible person and I hate the way I've treated people and I hate the way I act. I'm just in such a fucked up position right now with my friends and its messing with my head and its making me want to do things I know I'll regret. I feel so left out, so hated, so unloved. I feel disgusting. I hate who I am. I'm a disgusting horrible hypocritical person, I know I am and I can admit it. I've been mean to people, I've been a brat, I've been selfish, I've been a dick. I know I have. I just want my friends to stop hating me, i just want to tell them how sorry I am. But I don't even know if they're mad at me. One is talking shit about me, and his girlfriend isn't doing anything about it and I feel like she's taking me for granted and she makes me feel worse..she's so off and on and I can never tell how she's feeling because I share an opinion and she gives a short answer like she is uninterested so I say I'll go and she gets all weird like I said something completely weird and idk if I'm reading her wrong its just I can never tell if she is uninterested or just busy or whatever. I just wish I was a different person, pretty, tall, isn't in a family where money is a problem and don't have to feel guilty whenever my parents spend anything on me and then hate myself for being a spoiled brat. This is all so stupid because this is nothing to be upset about!! But I feel so numb and none of my friends even care about helping me! I don't deserve help anyway so ig its fine. After all I'm the same way so I deserve it. Its just my friends always show off shit they get and I feel jealous BC they can afford it and my family can't. Whatever i'll shut up now. Bye

Do you still want me to talk to you? Cus I mean last times I tried to talk you ignored me which I understand that you are stressed out and sometimes don't feel like talking so I just wanna know do you want me to leave you alone or do you just not feel like responding but still want me to talk?

I give to thee: Changeling by Lydia the Bard
          Pls listen to it I think it'll be good for you 
          *Mwah* <3

Does anybody still care abt me..?

Just a little bit longer...

Thanks for the follow! Where'd you find me? 

Thanks for the follow (*´▽`)ﾉ

Hi..
          I'm sorry for not responding to any of you, I haven't rlly been on wattpad, and I've just felt kind of embarrassed bc I said a lot lol..
          But I'm OK and ily all:)