I want to share this amazing news!!!
Yesterday, I realized that I haven't had a single suicidal thought in MONTHS!! I don't even remember the last one!! This feels wonderful!! I've never spent this long in my entire life without one! Yes, even when I was little!!!
I'm so happy! I'm almost four years clean of self-harm!! Five or six years clean of suicide attempts, and four years clean of hospitalization!! I feel amazing and I'm so proud of myself!! The only problem is that I am in manic right now.
Manic usually means less sleep, a lot of energy. So, I've been getting horrible sleep recently. It's 4PM and I'm exhausted!! I woke up at 2:30PM because I had such a bad night of waking up and going back to sleep!!!
But, I've never felt happier. I wanted to share. It took 20yrs to be able to be happy like this! My whole life!! Every day, I wake up on my own now, I go to sleep on my own, I eat when I'm hungry, I drink water more, I mean- I'm just getting so much better. Losing 74lbs in half a year helped too!!!
I love you all and hope to post more chapters of your favorites soon!!!
(If no one else does, I love you!)