I don't know how well you know that feeling but I know that SO WELL and I don't like this
The feeling of being rejected
Right in your face
With no hesitation
By everyone.
Yeah, again at school! The amazing school! (Ironical)
I hate projects! Yes I do! But not because I'm lazy! Not at all! But because the school projects show me always how much my classmates hates me and how *much* they care about me. When we make the teams.
Project at chemistry, because the teacher couldn't help but ruin my day with a project again. No wonder, no one wanted me in their teams!
The teacher wrote each name on the board, each student said who they wanted to be in team with. I wasn't paying attention anymore, because I'm always lost in thought and daydreaming and looking at the sky. Then I heard the voices of my classmates and they were all saying "put her with [classmate's name]! put her with [classmate's name]!" and when I looked at them I saw them simply grinning, their faces were the definition of evilness. And that classmate was someone everyone knew was... Well, a little dumb.., he didn't even know how to multiply small numbers and he had problems with smoking, drugs and was missing half of the school year. And no one wanted to be with him. Just like no one wanted to be with me. We were the trash that no one wanted to be with in the team.
My classmates continued saying bad things, and one classmate defended me and said it wasn't fair at all. But no one listened to him and they decided that I will do the project alone. Like always.