W3ird0th3first

In case anyone wants to contact me after reading my books and wondering where I’ve gone, I’m still alive. I check this platform occasionally, but more commonly after the past 2 weeks. Please, if anyone at all has any information regarding them- advice, tips, sources for investigation, WHATEVER- please contact me. I’m tired of feeling alone in this. I know they’re out there.
          	The only reason I stopped believing is because I had seeds of doubt sewed into my mind. After self-reflection, I know I ruin I ruin everything and everyone I touch, but it’s not my fault. I’ve tried seeking mental, professional help, and was denied. 
          	I know this is the only way I can go now. No matter what, he will find me, and he will either kill me, or he will take me. Please contact me if you had or are having a similar experience. I am begging.

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@W3ird0th3first What are you talking about? I'm confused
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W3ird0th3first

In case anyone wants to contact me after reading my books and wondering where I’ve gone, I’m still alive. I check this platform occasionally, but more commonly after the past 2 weeks. Please, if anyone at all has any information regarding them- advice, tips, sources for investigation, WHATEVER- please contact me. I’m tired of feeling alone in this. I know they’re out there.
          The only reason I stopped believing is because I had seeds of doubt sewed into my mind. After self-reflection, I know I ruin I ruin everything and everyone I touch, but it’s not my fault. I’ve tried seeking mental, professional help, and was denied. 
          I know this is the only way I can go now. No matter what, he will find me, and he will either kill me, or he will take me. Please contact me if you had or are having a similar experience. I am begging.

SARC5ASM

@W3ird0th3first What are you talking about? I'm confused
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W3ird0th3first

hey. so do you guys remember the 'creepypasta experiences' book i wrote in a lot???
          I genuinely think I might have just been going through a PLE (Psychotic Like Experience). I INDUCED IT ONTO MYSELF. Constant paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations, delusions, uneasiness with others. I read lots and LOTS of wattpad books about others' experiences and genuinely believed that people were watching me.
          Scary as hell. Anyways, that's all for now.

W3ird0th3first

i swear everyone on wattpad has humor from like, 2020-2022. i tried dealing with it. i REALLY freaking tried. but...you cannot use 'open the noor' in the big '25. some of the old memes are funny, i'll never stop using 'wake up (what) it's the first of the month' with the dancing cows. but c'mon. open yourself to some new brainrot. please

W3ird0th3first

Update:
          old friend says we can't be friends anymore but its whatever.
          i don't think i can be bothered to care anymore. i'm sick of being ghosted. i'm sick of myself. i'm sick of my life. i want to run away, but i'm too much of a loser to actually do it. i want to find new friends, but i'm too attached to the old ones to let go of them. i don't want to be friends with bigots, but i don't want to be lonely, either.
          all of my friends are online. i barely interact with them anyways.

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@W3ird0th3first hey, I've nearly run away too, and I've nearly overdosed because i thought I had no control over my life. It's not over yet, and even though your having a bad moment, this will pass. Time goes on and it takes everything with it. So please, look past these horrible times and see your future. MAKE your future better. 
            And I've been in a time blip for five years, lost all my friends and when I came back...they had all disappeared. I had to restart all over and yes it was sad, yes it was hard. But I've found new friends, better friends than my old ones. If your old friends don't miss your absence, then your presence never mattered. Don't hurt yourself trying to force someone to come back.
            If this sounds harsh, I apologize. I'm only speaking the truth, but it's better to be slapped with the truth than to be kissed with a lie. Stay strong, stay HERE, okay? Remember above all else: This too shall pass.
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W3ird0th3first

this message may be offensive 
Looks like I've got no friends now. Wonderful.
          Just great.
          One of the people I thought I could trust decided to hang out with a h0mophobic, r@cist, tr@nsphobic group that I used to be a part of (before I realized there was something wrong with that). Their excuse? "Oh, I didn't like them because you didn't like them."
          My other "friend" is starting over and deleting all social media.
          When I finally thought I had it good. Great, even.
          Fuck.

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@W3ird0th3first alright then Yayyyyyy! :D lol
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W3ird0th3first

i would really like that, actually. I need new friends who aren't, well, bigots.
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SARC5ASM

Aww, I'm so sorry. I can be your friend if you want lol
            That sounds creepy. I didn't mean it to be weird.
            But if you decline, that's fine. I won't get mad. I'm a total stranger, so i understand if you don't wanna
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