WANTED-U

@-creatures i didn’t mean to send that sO SOON but just talking to you makes me feel better. like i said, you make me happy. really happy. 

@-creatures don’t feel bad, you can’t control the fact that you’re not here. 

@-I95O- yeah. Everything is temporary, just so you remember. I only feel bad cause I hate when you feel like this. I can’t help much. If I was there, I could do so much more. I definitely would. I’d probably even be a tad annoying, making sure you’re okay.

@-creatures awe okay. i’ll try to relax. i love you too baby. thank you (: 

@-I95O- I hope you feel better baby. I love you so so much and I absolutely always will.

@-I95O- I’ve had an experience where I was thinking of my dad and my old stepdad ganging up on me in that kind of way. It was more of a nightmare. It wasn’t too long ago. I just kept my mouth shut about it but I understand that it can be scary and fucking disgusting. I know it’s hard to get your mind off of it but listen to good songs maybe. Put on Dance Gavin Dance or something and just relax.

that face is too happy- 

@-creatures I’ll try my best not to. the feeling just always is there hh but like i said, i’ll try, like always :]

@-I95O- I’m glad you said something about it. Please always try your best not to relapse. I know you always try not to and I’m super super proud of you for that. Just try not to think about the past. I fully understand that you’re scared of your house, I am very sorry about that. A house is supposed to make you feel safe but that’s not the case here. Maybe a person can make you feel safe rather than a house or your family.

@-creatures you didn’t do anything. it’s just me lmao

@lxrjsh just look forward to seeing him. I know you miss him but soon you’ll see him and you’ll be away from your parents and everything. I can tell you’re kind of off right now. Did I do something or is it just home life?

i can tell i’m also a little worried 

@p4th3tik it takes time to change but idk I just kinda thought I sounded a tad different. Just a little.

@p4th3tik it’s fine, I can’t get mad or anything. I know I sound like a girl. I’ve been working on it but apparently it has done nothing yet lmaooo

@t-trippy ): THAT’S WHY I SAID I WASN’T GOING TO SAY 

@p4th3tik it’s okay baby. You tried your hardest and I’m really proud of you. Next time tell me right away though please. I love you a lot and you’ve made it far in the past, I know you will make it far again. I probably can’t help you much when you feel like relapsing but if there’s anything I can do, tell me right away. I’ll do anything.

Hhhh this sounds depressing imma just leave now

i’m really sorry 

@t-trippy i’ll make sure to think of that. thank you, seriously. i love you too, make sure to sleep well and take care of yourself. i’ll try to sleep the most i can tonight. goodnight

@-disobedient can you do something for me? Can you think of me as if I was there with you? Holding you. Trying to calm you down. Maybe playing with your hair and holding your hand. I wish I was there with you right now but unfortunately after this message, I’m going to bed but please just try to think as if I was there with you. I love you so so much baby. Please try and sleep tonight. Remember, I’m there with you.

@t-trippy i haven’t been able to calm myself down. it’s so stupid. thank you though 

@t-trippy alright 

@-disobedient you also don’t have to worry about me

@-disobedient and stop apologizing, you’re okay.

@-disobedient you’re not a dumb prick Joseph. You don’t make everything about you, you really don’t. You rant. That’s okay. We all have to. Stop keeping it bottled up, letting it out is alright. Don’t feel bad for needing to rant. Even if it is a lot. Leave it if want to, just not forever please. If you know that keeping things inside hurts, then why do it? You need to tell me when things are bad so I can help. It’s not healthy to keep it trapped. You’re not having a pity party but even if you were, it’s alright.. no need to apologize. Come back when you’re ready. Even if it’s way later tonight. Just let me know that you’re okay.

i dont wanna deal with anything rn 

goodbye, im leaving 

@t-trippy aww ok, thank you

@-disobedient hey what ever you’re talking about, I’m sorry. You’ll get through what ever it is. I know you can.. I know you will.
            I’ll also be here to help.

im used to the feeling i guess but im not used to it happening because i don’t w a n t it to happen