𝕎𝟛!ℝ𝔻𝟘

I hate you. 
          
          I think I fucking hate you. 
          
          I can't do this anymore- 
          
          I can't thoroughly express my characters- myself, or anything without making you cry 
          
          and then I feel bad.
          
          If you read this I'd feel bad for letting you now I'd feel bad. 
          
          and you'd hide your feeling- 
          
          but I don't want that. 
          
          I just know that I want to stop being scared of you. 
          
          that isn't love.
          
          that isn't friendship.
          
          this isn't friendship.

I hate you- 
          
          I hate you so much- but I can never bring myself to admit maybe you really don't care. That maybe I AM overthinking this- but you KNOW how I am- you lied straight to my face. I told you she broke me- and then you replicated her actions PERFECTLY. I loved you and then you stabbed be in the back <3

/VENT/  
          
          You're making me LOSE MY FREAKING MIND- You say i'm your best friend but you continue to treat me just like you did before! I've been giving you HINTS about this- but you LITERALLY just seem to not understand. SO let me spell it out: I AM NOT OVER YOU YET, TELLING ME ABOUT HOW YOU ARE CRUSHING ON SOMEONE- OR TALKING ABT LOVE ALMOST THE FREAKING DAY AFTER WE SPLIT ISN'T HELPING. I AM sorry if this comes off as rude- but I'm hitting my limit- It didn't take you a DAY to get over me while it's taken me WEEKS- That REALLLYYYY shows how much you CARED. I'm so utterly hurt because I feel PLAYED with. As if I was just some STUPID puppet- and I'm DONE- being your TOY- I'm tired of being treated like a stupid dummy who doesn't feel at all!! YEAH- I AM here for you bc we're friends and I do care- but that's not a reason to pretend I don't feel- or to act like I'm a PAWN. and the AUDACITY You have to say nobody will ever love you- EXCUSE ME??? why the actual FREAK do you think we were in a relationship before- YOU ARE YOUNG. we have YEARS to go- for gods SAKE- please just- 
          
          UNDERSTAND- I FEEL. I'm NOT a toy- TREAT ME LIKE A PERSON.