~°☆♧☆°~Willow~°☆♧☆°~

Ok, gonna just hope and pray that bro doesn't come on here anymore
          
          Ok, so chat. i'm hoping I can get some advice. What do i do with the fact? i still like this boy i dated. Do I just force myself to move on, tell him, or ignore it?
          
          -Willow
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sorry for reposting the mis spelling. Was annoying me

Ok I'ma do a quick pros and cons list for yall rq about the people I have liked in my life the first one being most ressent and last being the furthers (and if Ive liked them before stopped liking them then liked them again ill put them at theyre most resent spot)
          
          1:M
          Pros:
          Nice
          Kind 
          Funny understands me
          Good perosnality
          
          Cons: 
          My bestfriend
          I dunno if i actually like her 
          Might be dating?
          
          2:K
          Pros:
          Funny 
          Same humor
          Can talk to
          Knowne for ages
          
          Cons:
          Beatfriend
          Dayed before 
          
          3:R
          Pros:
          Funny
          Can talk to
          Close
          
          Cons:
          Sorta friends
          He most likely doesnt like me back 
          
          4: B
          Pros:
          Were friends
          Funny
          Nice
          Understanding
          Nice personality
          
          Cons:
          Ive dated him before
          Has a gf
          
          5:i
          Pros:
          Funny
          
          Cons:
          Friend
          My bsf dont like them
          Soemtimes annoying
          
          6:BL
          Pros:
          Funny
          Nice 
          Understanding 
          Good humor
          
          Cons:
          Didnt wanna date me
          Friends
          
          7: R
          Pros: 
          
          
          Cons:
          Was friends
          Mean
          Rude
          Bullied me
          A bitch
          Fought me
          Played with my feelings
          
          8:A
          Pros:
          Funny 
          Nice
          Same humor
          
          Cons:
          Were friends
          Didnt understand me
          
          
          9:P
          Pros
          
          
          
          Cons:
          Was forced to date him
          Hated me after ai broke up with him
          Tried bashing me after I broke up with him
          Rude
          Mean
          

Ok haven't been here in awhile but my life has been actually amazing lately. Theres this boy I like and I'm getting my braces on tmr. I'm trying to fix my ed i wanna fet help but im scared but I might tell someone soon. I've been streaming and it's been making me so happy. My brother knows I stream, I'm eating again! It's still hard to eat but im eating. I'm proud of myself and I hope your proud of me.
          
          Thanks for all the support over these four years. 
          
          -willowlog

Ok I was just thinking and remembered last year my friends said I had bipolar and I'm not just realising that it might be true for reasons I won't go into lmao.

Genuienly don't know who we went from bestfriends to fucking hating eachother. 
          
          Anyway Goodnight lovelys </3

Genuinely suicide is the only option anymore.
          
          I bulit up the courage and blovked everyone.
          
          I'm not gonna sit with anyone anymore.
          
          Might just torture myself before killing myself.
          
          And god forbid any of my "friends" see this and the I'm the bad person

Gen question how the fuck do I work up the courage to block everyone on every platform, go to school and not talk to them! 

Guys what the shizz in december ill have been here making books for three year om

I just want my dad to love me what did I do wrong?
          
          I love him why doesn't he love me

Tricking your brain into thinking you don't like someone but you actually just jealous sucks cause what do you mean I hate someone that I meant to be friends with only cause I'm so fucking jealous of them. 
          
          Maybe If I did one thing different that day everything would be better