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I must have some real monster inside my stomach or something like man 
          I eat a lot like real lot and still be hungry in five minutes like tf? 
          I don't even gain weightttttt . No matter how many tons of food I eat it's the same circle again . Eat, hungry, eat , hungry , eat , hungry but never gain weight . Idk if it's a blessing or curse man 

Have you ever in your life wanted and did things to feel pain , I'm talking about physical pain , like let urself be beaten up so u can feel the rush , feel something in your senses , something that keeps u at the time . It's a wierdly peaceful feel , most people will cry or scream of they got beaten up but me I'll smile or chuckle and would provoke the other one . Cus it's good , it's just it's a power , I'm not powerless there , I am actually letting the person do the stuff and showing that it doesn't and won't do anything to me . It's helpful for u to love stronger both mentally and physically. Tells you that everyone will hurt you and you can't trust anyone . When you get beaten up it's when ur mind says go on beat me , I know you were gonna do this . Simply putting it into words it is 
          
          "Pain is needed to not feel another pain" 
          When you are physically tired or physically got fucked up your instincts raise up and your mind gets sharper and it's only thought is yourself.
          
          I hope I don't get cancelled for writting this pfft

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It amuses me how some people say they love the other person and say I loved them very much and then go talk so lowly about the said person.  Like if you truly did loved someone you wouldn't have the heart to speak anything bad about them.  I see people here calling thier used to be loved ones vulgar names ...I be like " heh???? " Like I get it , when u r hurt u will do say some hurtful stuffs but idk man . This is just totally wierd for me . Do u all feel that way too or r u against what I said? I'm curious 

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 The tears aren't yours , 
          The breath isn't yours , 
          The struggles aren't yours and the pain isn't yours 
          My life isn't yours and my scars isn't yours 
          My smile isn't yours and my tries aren't yours 
          But still it seems you believe you know it all 
          Know enough to point Fingers at me 
          Know enough to call me and my life names 
          Know enough to say what I deserve and don't deserve 
          And still I stay , stay without letting a single word out about you 
          Hoping you wouldn't live a life like mine , even if all u do is point fingers 
          My prayers are mine , and what is mine will be mine 
          Even if it meant what I'm living is hell 
          I stay silent cus I know my scars 
          I stay silent cus I've seen it all 
          And I stay silent cus I know it all