WarmAesthetics

LIKE BROTHER WHAT AM I DOING?! anyways sorry for not writing anymore. 
          I can’t find the write words for it and the plot loses me. I HATE starting it up and wanna just jump right in. 
          I no longer write fanfics of nct (hurts my soul to read them back but I do with great fondness.)
          I met so many great people here. 
          
          I wonder if anyone will see this?
          
          ANYWAYS the letter was POSTED ANONYMOUSLY on a website so he will never see it. Honestly I just needed to get it out but I guess I just wanted to know am i doing too much? Did it kinda pull on your heart strings? lol. 
          
          Oki byee<3

pt 3.. yeah
          
          I wish I was loved the way you loved me. Back then when we broke up, a part of me was so happy. I truly thought I was so broken and I didn’t deserve you. A lot of things were happening in my life when I met you and it led me to do stupid things.
          Meeting someone like you has been a pleasure to show me what true love is like, and it’s something I unfortunately am still looking for within my relationship. Stupid, right?
          Isn’t it stupid that after all this time for some random reason I can’t stop thinking about you? I see you’re in a relationship and she is so beautiful, I hope she treats you the way you deserve.
          I hope that life treats you well and you are thriving.
          God this is so stupid.
          Maybe I wrote this because I envy you.
          I don’t know.
          I truly wish I don’t come across your path ever again. It drives me nuts and I think about you for a while. Why doesn’t this happen with other people I’ve dated?
          To know I’m in a relationship and still yearn for your love and the innocence of it all.
          I am truly sorry for giving you up, I was immature and didn’t know how to react with your love.
          
          I wish you well:)

pt2 sending my ex a letter
          
          It was truly something so pure and innocent, something I still look fondly back at to this day.
          Well our time ended quick, but to me it felt like years had gone by. You truly showed me what true love was in such a short time. Brushing your teeth before kissing me because you were worried about gluten even though I personally didn’t care.
          You are someone I search for in everyone.
          I didn’t come here to say I was still in love with you- because I’m not. But for some reason you have been on my mind.
          I saw your dad at my work the other night, maybe that’s why. And for some reason I wish he remembered me like I remembered him, because then that would prove I am someone worth remembering.
          

Love letter to my ex. stupid ik. pt1
          
          Dear —-
          
          This is going to sound so stupid and I truly hate myself for feeling this way but here I go.
          The moment we met it was such a strange feeling. At the time it was really bad in my life and yet you shined on me so bright. I never expected to feel such warmth and fondness for you.
          Shortly after meeting you we found ourselves together all the time, I always wanted to see you and hear your voice. Even finding small things to do like sit around and look at cars and call out names, like banana slap. We did it but in our own way.
          

Always log back in and have this weird feeling that i failed myself. I used to love writing and I always looked forward to see your comments and stuff. Im currently 19, i started the crush back in 7th grade i believe. i wish i could see the old version of it, to see how my brain was and just to go back. I miss writing and not struggling as much just to come up with ideas, i miss you guys all

I want to release my book of my thoughts as I've been struggling this my mental health. it isn't going to be anything kpop related as i don't even listen to nct or keep up with them:( lost myself and i'm just trying to pick myself back up<3

Hey, so I guess I will be going onto neo book too? Let me know if it's a good idea. I'll lowkey just copy and paste so it's better if you use neo book and not wattpad anymore :)

UGH! I'm so excited with my progress on criminal au! unfortunetly i just could not write the crush. No inspiration. But it will be back. Criminal au is GOING!!!

Hello my lovely's, 
          I hope life has been treating you well recently.
          My life has been turned upside down and shaken and I was told by my doctor to continue writing. Unfortunately, I feel as though the words have disappeared from my vocabulary, lol. But I have a laptop now which is awesome! 
          Anyways, my little update to all of you lovely's. Till then, take care and I love you all, L.s <3

I'm so sorry. I know I keep saying I'll write, but life is not lifing and i cant keep writing. I'm trying but its jus.. ugh idek. im so sorry for letting you down but I just dont know how to keep up. This book was written so long ago, and re writing it was a good idea because its so messy.. unfortunately i dont think it'll do