Waterdog666

Hi you are my new dad based off your bio thanks

So umm i just realized that im trans (FtM), cause ive been thinking about it and after i did a some research on it i could find myself relating to a lot and then i tried the pronoun dressing room and i found myself being more and more attached to the male pronouns then my current female ones. this morning i thought i was genderfluid because i was led to believe that there was no possible way for me to be physically a guy without my family putting me down because my mom used to always deny my claims that i felt like  a guy when i was younger... but like i accidentally came out  to my older sister as a guy and she didn't really mind and my mom is now just like you do yo boo when i came out to her. Im mostly afraid of how my brothers  would react to this... i dont really care how my dad reacts to the news because i dont want to speak with him anymore. Im so glad that i have supportive friends that i can relay on when i need help and all that shizz. 
          
          Also on a similar but also different note I am acually pansexual not bisexual..
          
          so BOOM there ya go a whole coming out post my dudes

OH MY GOD GUYS I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW LIKE YFGIUJGHGYJJH
          
          MY FRIEND IS A BLESSING TO GOD AND  IS BUYING ME A CHEST BINDER LIKE KDKFHAJ WTF 
          
          SO I SPENT THIS WHOLE MORNING JUST RESEARCHING THEM AND STUFF BC I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE ONE AND I FOUND WAYS I COULD BIND MY CHEST IN THE MEAN TIME AND I FOUND SO MANY WAYS TO DO THAT
          
          SO I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE OMG  IT'S SO FLAT I DONT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WAS THIS FLAT! I AM ACTUALLY LOOKING THE PART OF THE GUY FOR ONCE! 
          
          i'M GOING TO SCREAM

so umm i just wrote my first fully finished lemon/smut....... um it's gay and like i spent hours on it even though my friends who told me to write it told me to go to bed more than 3 hours ago... um its posted in the book called im bored so umm yeah its the second chapter the first chapter is what made my friends want me to write the smut/lemon so yeah here ye go my first lemon/smut ever that is fully finished and kinda makes sense. i want to die. Also if you want please give me feedback on it i don't really know what i was doing bc the last time i was trying to write smut i basically just coke blocked my friend bc i said that i was going to finish it but i never actually did so yeah

Good morning today is a wonderful daaaaaaay.
          
          so i just woke up and went to go get coffee with me mum and IT HAD SNOWED LAST NIGHT!!!! so im like omg there is snow in my font yard, then i realized that today was my birthday! and then i was like OH MY FLUFFY DOG IT MY BIRTHDAY AND THERE"S SNOW OUTSIDE....
          
          then i proceeded to get coffee and now im speanding the rest of the day inside, but still omg snow.
          
          (for your information it doesn't really snow a lot were i live, except last year it snowed for like 2 weeks in a row.......)

*crawls out of garbage can wearing a santa hat and a necklace with tiny plastic masson jars filled with a strange liquid and the eyes of my enimies*
          
          marry christmas or happy hollidays or whatever you fucking celebrate this time of year ya fucking depressed fucktards who follow me for some reason! 
          
          I am a semi happy chicken nugget my birthday is in like two days so yeet. i told my mother that i was going to bed like an hour ago and now its almost 3 in the morning and i am still awake.......... help me.
          
          on a different note there is some stupid shit going on right now, such as the fact that i have been a single pringle for almost 2 months now and some guy told me he liked me and i ran away saying "thats nice" so i feel like a total bitch. oh and the guy who told me that he liked me decided to have my friend, who i have had a crush on for like 8 years now, ask me for an actual response so that was a whole anxiety attack.
          
          wanna know whats amazing? The fact that i have been waited for this guy to realize i have a crush on him and when i told him last year he left me on read and just pretended that it never happened but had started to smile and stare at me a whole lot more.... people are confusing.
          
          its sad boi hours my friend is transfering to a christan school and idk when is the next time ill be able to see her again.
          
          any ways i am sorry i havent been uploading i just kinda lost all insperation for any of my books and i havent really been as depressed lately to write in my book that is based only on depression and how i deal with it.
          
          
          but..... uhhhh..... yeah marry christmas you fucking gremlins and happy new year too just in case because why the fuck not 
          
          
          *crawls back into garbage can laughing like a creep, my santa hat falls off to reveal elf ears with earings attached this time the jewlery is two jars that have breathing holes with live faries traped inside*
          
          haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapy hoooooooooooooooooooooolodays

I am the gay for wamen noodles

wow almost 50 people follow me how is that possible im like kinda a disapointment soo like woooooah

WARNING:THIS CONTAINS SELFHARM READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
          
          
          So like I'm stupid. I did something bad to myself again. I tried to contact one of the people who help me get through the times where I feel like doing this bad thing. However, the urge was too strong and I didn't have enough time to contact them before I had found myself littered in cuts from the top of my inner thighs to a bit past my ribcage. I'm sorry. I didn't think that my urge would get that strong, thankfully they have stopped bleeding and are cleaned. I'm sorry, that you had to get this news at like 1 in the morning. Next time I will try more to resist the urge so this doesn't happen again. I'm sorry.

Sorry if I blew up your notifications when I was editing.