Being someone who never quite understands one's own desires is very difficult. The thing called future as well as desire is hard to understand. A lot has happened in your past, a lot is happening in the present and it makes you stuck with mental pain, don't know what you are going through is it true? Some people including close friends rarely know you deeply experience it, they only see you in front with your cheerful face. Your mask is just a container to cover your pain. It's strange to see this life, even you find it difficult to feel love like other young people, you just feel alone like that. Crying is not because of love or a man who hurt you, but because you are now who is instilling hope for the future. Seeing the complete person in their life is a little foreign to you, makes you think what are you doing right now? Honestly Admit it's really hard to heal, sometimes it takes to get out of the past and get up but you still feel the same every time.
