James/Jem

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I've uploaded new chapters on my genderfluid books, I think ya'll should read them.

The genderfluid squirrel may not be genderfluid.
          
          I am also not a squirrel.
          
          So, for 3 years I was out as a transguy. My name was Zach, Zachary Matthew Reyes. I never really questioned that, ever. I was a guy. My dysphoria is and was terrible. I never was accepted at home, my parents almost divorced because of me being a transguy. I had a relationship completely not work out because I was trans. I felt bad about being a male.
          
          I went to a mental hospital and was away for a while. I started to question my gender, mostly since other peoples were asking me a lot about it and I never had good answers to their questions. I went through a lot of research and started thinking I was genderfluid. I started to think this because on some days, I didn’t really have dysphoria.
          
          Now that I’m thinking about it, I might not have raelly felt that gender dysphoria because so much more was happening mentally and even now, the days were I feel agender are days when a lot is going on mentally. 
          
          After I came out as genderfluid and changed my name to Jem, I still called myself Zach in my head. I didn’t really stop for about 8 months and sometimes I call myself James. I question my name a lot, if it’s the right name for me. It causes me a lot of stress sometimes. 
          
          I feel so right being called a he, as a genderfluid person I like being called he 100% of the time and I don’t think thats normal for a fluid person. I don’t know.
          
          Also when I came out as genderluid, people said that sounded right and that I seemed to fem for a guy. This hurt me, a lot. That made me cry. 
          
          I’m sorry. I feel ashamed.
          
          I think I’m just a guy, that used to seem so right but it caused so many problems at home.
          
          I can’t believe I’ve typed this. I can’t believe I’m posting this.

Just made a new book called Things I Never Say, it has two parts up already.

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I made a new book called Genderfluid Dysphoria Blues that goes more in depth about my experience being genderfluid and my dysphoria than my book Jem (A Genderfluid Journal) does. I hope you guys like it and can relate.

I went to Homecoming on Saturday, if ya'll want to see some pictures I can give you my discord and/or Tumblr. I had a nice time, I think I looked cute. All the pics are really gay.

@awkwardelliott Hi

When people ask you if you've ever been in love, who's the first person you think of? I hope it's still me.