I have fallen many times that I become so numb, the fall no longer hurt me. And after a long time waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel I realized that if there is no light at all, I must create my own. I will never be strong enough, I don't have any strength left in me, an undead who seeks happiness in pornography yet I lost my sensations instead, and memories are so hard to recall, without emotions there can be no memories. I no longer knows what love is and when I die, the world will continue to move on like nothing happened. But I am still here and I'm still fighting. Unlike me, have a great day my friend.