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Henlo
          
          so I almost disappeared for an entire year, therefore a life update since I kinda forgot I exist here in Wattpad lmao
          
          - turned 22 (am old, I know)
          
          - I'm now developing a VR game for my thesis along with my homies, gonna have an internship and graduate next year
          
          - consequences of my bad life decision in 2023 has been finally settled just this recently (in a nutshell last year, my first relationship fell apart due to many things, I lost 98% of my original homies, and  revenge got in the way before I got a much needed emotional closure)
          
          - had to build my social life mostly from scratch, which means I have a new group of friends, including my former crush who I friendzoned after realizing he's better as a homie (and I was forced to admit my crush on him because he asked a question he shouldn't have asked, but we aren't awkward at all lol)
          
          - finally in a healthy, happy serious relationship...except it's LDR for now =(
          
          so yeah, tons of stuff changed in one year for me. Being a legit adult sucks.

Sup guys 
          
          Still alive, might write a bit when I feel like it and when I'm not swamped with school responsibilities 
          
          I feel like doing stuff again after all this time since I got too busy with university back then and had to recover from a really bad life decision that fucked me up for at least half a year
          
          But anyway, I'm totally fine now
          
          

I just turned 20 but I feel old already

So I practically lowkey offended a Norwegian (and a whole lot of others) after sending a drawing that had some warning about certain symbols on a Discord server. Later on, the issue got to the admin...
          
          I'm literally just 2 days in as a new member of the server and I kinda fucked up already.
          
          Darn.

Crush: tells me that he's still into someone else and is still not moving on (and is oblivious to the fact that I like him)
          
          Me internally: good thing I did not invest my feelings too much on you or I would have cried right now
          
          Emotionally chickening out is good way too save your feelings lol 

After finishing my midterms last Saturday, I decided that I should finally play as Medic in TF2...
          
          Guess what? 
          
          Playing Medic is an absolute hell of a headache (literally), it's hard to stay alive if your teammates can't protect you.
          
          This is the reason why I play powerful offense (sometimes defense and rarely support) classes in any FPS game.
          
          I'd rather be a Pyro, a Heavy, or a Soldier.

My laptop can actually handle TF2 
          
          Time to yeet peeps

I really want to play Team Fortress 2 right now as a Medic or Pyro but I'm a total noob (and the game is almost 23 GB, wth)
          
          And of course, I have too many priorities as a college freshman....but I want to play a video game so bad
          
          Life sucks ☹

Me: *is looking for a picture of sleepwear for men from 1840's to use as a reference for a fanart*
          My mom who saw the pics on my laptop: THE HELL IS THIS?
          
          Me: Oh shiet.
          
          Good thing she didn't see the WIP on my phone, because it's almost bordering on rated R....
          
          oh boy.

I'm having a headache just thinking about piecing  together a bunch of words. I can imagine how it happens in my mind in detail but I have forgotten how to write it the way it should be, probably since it has been a year since I last wrote a story (which I did for school).
          
          And that certain oneshot plan I had, that goes to the bin because the idea just doesn't work.
          
          I guess I have to practice writing again...