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Came on here to complain bc this is basically my diary at this point but I don’t even know how to put any of this into words life’s just kinda gone to shit

One month and 6 days until I’m a senior and I’m done with this shitfest of a year

Holy fuck that was the longest shittiest week of my life
          
          (Well probably not but it sucked)

So my first prom is in a month, and my friend group is falling apart bc the two people that were dating broke up and now won’t speak to each other and therefore are avoiding the rest of us in any group setting. Yay highschool. 
          
          But hey new Conan songs in a week, right?

What does one do when there’s a breakup in the friend group and now the only two people consistently showing up at lunch is you and one other person, neither of you has been told anything about anything so you’re trying to figure out what the fuck is happening

Don’t make me go back to school get me out I hate it there

It hurts sometimes looking at my little cousin who’s now the age I was when I started having certain mental health issues, stuff I now know some of my friends also dealt with at that same age, and he’s just a baby. We were just babies. In the grand scheme of things we’re still just babies, I’m only 17. I sometimes wonder how I’ll survive high school, let alone college, and the rest of my life. I was 13 when I suddenly couldn’t picture any sort of future for myself anymore, wouldn’t let myself picture an adult future for myself, and now my baby cousin is that age and I truly hope he doesn’t follow in my footsteps in that way. I hope this kid gets all he wants in life, and I hope I’ll be there to watch it

If I had a nickel for every time I started to consider liking a guy (which even tho I’m bi doesn’t happen often) during tech/show week just to find out within a week that he likes another girl and they start talking and/or get together shortly after I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot but it’s really weird that it’s happened twice.

It’s 8:15 on a Monday I feel like my ears are gonna explode, I’m sick, my friend is chewing really fucking loudly, and i couldn’t find my headphones this morning 
          
          
          Get me tf out of here

I have winter formal tmrw! Yk, I was dreading it earlier this week, and then my friends and I started making plans and I actually got really excited. But guess what
          
          Wofo is tomorrow
          
          And now I’m dreading it more than ever