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It’s 8:15 on a Monday I feel like my ears are gonna explode, I’m sick, my friend is chewing really fucking loudly, and i couldn’t find my headphones this morning 
          
          
          Get me tf out of here

I have winter formal tmrw! Yk, I was dreading it earlier this week, and then my friends and I started making plans and I actually got really excited. But guess what
          
          Wofo is tomorrow
          
          And now I’m dreading it more than ever

Went to my first like not just my friends party today (it was a potluck movie game party for all the theater programs in my district) (I cried in the bathroom twice)

Sigh

Do you ever hit the point of so badly wanting someone to realize that you’re not okay, yet at the same time terrified about what would happen if they realized you aren’t okay

Also kinda piggy backing off my last announcement, I’m not great at making friends, I’m good at like making acquaintances but I have a really hard time getting close to people so I’m kind of terrified for college in that respect.

Yall ever feel like you almost put too much effort into things? Sometimes I feel like I care too much about things, or people, that don’t put in that much effort back. Like, I love my friends, and I know they love me, and I spend like two hours last night and like two hours tonight custom making 6 valentines with felt and patterned paper and washy tape because we’re having our like “valentines” tomorrow, and I’m doing it because I love my friends, and ik it’s selfish to want something in return, but sometimes I just wish someone put in as much effort for me as I try to do for others, I spent hours custom making new covers for journals/ book boxes for my friends and with all my creative friends I don’t think any of them made anything
          
          I know it’s extremely selfish but I just can’t get rid of the feeling that I’m doing too much for people that won’t do the same for me.

Participating in my first protest on Friday, schools across California are walking out against ice, if you’re able and part of the participating schools, join in

Guess who’s now a year away from adulthood

My ear is lwk fucked up again