WeirdAs__BiTrash

When everyone I know is like “I’m like.. actually happy for the first time in a while” and I’m just sitting in a corner by myself as things get worse and worse

Sometimes I tell myself “I’m not going to text them/the group chat first because I feel hurt every time I don’t get a response” and then I break that and send something and.. guess what??? I don’t get a response.
          
          
          The friend group blew up and now it’s pretty much just me and the two people in that group that actually responded to my messages on groupchats and nowww they don’t respond either

I feel like I’m going genuinely fucking insane

Fuck ai and my friends aren’t responding to me, but I’m writing a skit and need a little help
          
          What are some like very minor things that someone may take medication for that the side effects would be 50x worse than what they’re taking it for? (Two ideas are hang nails and excessive sweating)

And suddenly my nervous system can’t tell the difference between asking people to hang out with me and being held at gunpoint

I’m so screwed

Hi

Quite possibly the worst semester of my high school career but hey, at least I got straight A’s for the first time in a while

Me when I started kinda crying several times during our final circle for my theater class (the last day of school was today), partially like everyone else because I’m gonna miss our seniors and this class and everything we did this year, but unfortunately also because of all of the connections people were talking about making, and people being each other’s safe spaces and finally feeling like they belong somewhere knowing I’ve never had that and am not sure I ever will. My basically two remaining friends after everything seem to be drifting away, neither seemed to actually want to hang out with me on the last day (today) one of which, (I could be paranoid) said she had to pick up her sister and then had to go sing with choir at graduation at 4:30, so she couldn’t hang out. I just wanted to grab like ice cream or a quick lunch. We were out at like 1.  (And she left at like 12:30 to pick up her sister) But I was like okay alright she has stuff to do, but there was this sinking feeling that she was blowing me off to do something eith someone else, so I checked Life360, and right after she picked up her sister, she turned it off. I ended up making some sort of joke about her location being off later and she was like “oops that was an accident I didn’t realize I did that” but I’m not so sure I believe that. And then my other friend fully just didn’t respond and barely talked to me today. 
          
          Seems like today has set the tone for the summer: depressing and lonely 
          
          Yayyyy

Realizing as my group continues to fall apart that I’m the only one without other friends to fall back on