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Hello!

When you are absolutely struggling with ideas that you think are really good but just, cannot. And are going insane day by day. 
          
          God this is agony lmao 

Man the sheer amount of Hamilton references in Pasts is kinds driving me insane 
          
          Like 
          
          Jeeeeeeesus guys- lol I see every comment and I'm just- y'all insane 
          

HAPPY SPOOKY DAY 

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULYYYYYYYYYYYY
          
          I think I have to say that because of how obsessed I am with personifications of America, I mean, I wrote three books about the shitheads lmao 

So, if you've read my last announcement, I have come to conclusion, and
          
          I'm going to delete Unknown. That's just going to happen. Secrets and Pasts are obviously discontinued too, I don't update them anymore, but Unknown I will delete. 
          
          Probably not all of it. I'll keep the prologue and first chap up, but everything else is getting nuked. It has potential, I just fumbled it so horribly, and it's killing me. 
          
          I do also think I published it too early. It was just "this exists now" and I didn't really know what I wanted to do with it. And it's also been haunting my nightmares- 
          
          So uh, yeah. That will happen, sometime. Just... Expect it. 
          
          

MAN WHY ARE YALL FOLLOWING AND READING- IM BOUTA GO INSANE LIKE AYO 
          
          I would like to say thanks, but at the same time i feel bad because my books are deader than corpses bitches are s k e l e t o n s - and, honestly, they might stay like that for a while. 
          
          Writing has been unnaturally hard. I'm not gonna rant, but I've been thinking about some things. Some of you will probably already figure, but i anticipate some backlash. 
          
          I'll update y'all whenever i come to that conclusion, but I've been lurking a bit, and just seeing that people still read and comment and stuff- 
          
          I HAVE JUST CHECKED AND PASTS IS PAST (pasts is past. Interesting) 50K LIKE W H A T . Secrets is practically at 29k and unknown is at 24k??? Do you guys like suffering, reading unfinished stories??? 
          
          Y'all are weird but I'm not gonna question it. 
          
          Well anywho, imma be on or off. Like i say a billion times, drafts look mighty fine- but i haven't been the best even there, I've been slowing down, needtogetintoahabitongod- eh, writing on Wattpad isn't life or death, but i do sorta miss it. Been dead as hell on here lmao 
          
          Well anyways, back to your regular scheduled programing :) imma just be here, lurking as always, just t r y i n . 

Have you ever had the intrusive thoughts that makes you wanna do something you know you will regret, but you really wanna do them? 
          
          Yeah well hey hi hello, Shadow here, and instead of working on my stories like a productive member of society and sane person would, I wanna rate Hetalia ships because I just watched Kolko's Shipping Awards and it has me hyped 
          
          If this sounds interesting I'll make a book and y'all can go nuts giving me any sort of ships and- I know that it's a risky game, I mean, shipping and Hetalia. But Hetalia seems to have calmed down from the hellhole it once was and, hey, I'm not that big of a shipper anymore so why not revisit sentient governments and landmasses getting it on 
          
          Oh bad intrusive ideas.... How I hate to love you 

Happy Valentines! May everybody get a load of chocolates and have tons of cheesy romance books/movies to watch lol 

I think I'll try to update once or twice a month. I think that's a good timeframe and I won't become as quickly burnt out as before. Don't be surprised if I break this though, my brain just looooves screwing things up for me lmao.