Cocoa

happy birthday 

IT'S MY BIRTHDAYYY!! WOOOO

TW: Mentioned eating disorder
          So, I have an eating disorder. We haven't figured out which exactly, but my therapist is working on that and we currently believe I have Arfid. 
          
          I started some birth-control recently and one of it's consequences is increased appetite, which I'm loving. I managed to reach 50kg!! Which is still too little for someone my height, but it's a fucking achievement.
          
          Two days later YouTube starts showing me weight-loss and fitness ads and I did not look for anything even remotely similar... My appetite dropped again and I'm fucking pissed. I do not want to loose weight again, I was getting better!! But noooo, I'm getting all these ads and getting stressed because of school and I stopped eating as much again!! I'm so angryyyyy

So uh- Hi!!
          
          Sorry for disappearing, life kicked me in the face... Anyways, in my disappearance I was somewhat useful an actually wrote something!! 
          
          So I'm happy to announce that I have finally started to write a books and the first chapter if Hidden Regrets is out!! 
          
          Have a good day and I hope you enjoy the story,
          Byee♡!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS SWEET PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW ME!! I LOVE YOUUUUU

I have a cut on each pointer finger and its deep enough where I can't put pressure. I'm feeling like freaking Shigaraki, all I need is the lack of moisturizer and a scratching habit

Part 2
          
          So if I go outside in a short dress to a bar and drink one (1) cocktail (like the victim) anyone can do whatever they want to me and it's my fault!?
          
          And then the victim was HUMILIATED by the r@pists lawyer in COURT and had to PLEAD to be respected!! WHAT THE FUCK!?
          
          I encourage you to look more into it, please help... Help the victim and everyone in Brazil... I'm scared... What if it happens to me?! I just want to feel pretty and have fun... I just want my rights...
          
          Before you go, I just want you to be aware that fifteen (15) years ago, so up until 2005, if a woman was r@ped and then she married the r@pist (doesn't matter if she really wanted to or not) he doesn't need to go to jail. Because apparently by marrying her he will be restoring her honor... 
          
          Fuck the justice system

READ THIS PLEASE!! PLEASE!!
          
          I know most people that follow me come to Wattpad to read, have fun and forget about real life. Honestly, I do too. But something happened today and it's wrong and people need to hear this!!
          
          As some of you know, I'm a white teenage girl from a well off family. We aren't rich, but we aren't poor either. We have enough to live life comfortable. 
          
          Now, why am I telling you this?? Most girls in Brazil aren't that lucky. People are discriminatory because of their social class, color of their skin, sex, sexual orientation and religion. I myself have faced a couple of those... and, well, if people can say crap about my curly hair and plump lips because "its weird" and "if I want to be pretty is shouldn't have them" because of racism (i inherited these features from my black great grandmother) I can't imagine how other feel. Especially woman from poor families... After all, just yesterday I had to clothes because my parents were scared if me being harrassed for using clothes that make me feel pretty... Even when I'm clearly a minor with her parents.
          
          Now, sometimes people do worse. 
          
          What I'm going to tell you wasn't caused by racism, but sexism. But, my point stands.
          
          A young woman, barely older than a teen, she was twenty-one (21) at the time, was drugged than r@ped in a bar by a rich white man. The police have so much proof... the freaking sperm matches...
          
          But the Brazilian justice called it 'R@pe of Fault'... where it'a the VICTIMS fault they were R@PED!! 
          
          Apparently, if you post more sexual photos online and wear short clothing, you are inviting these things... and the man, well, he just wanted sex, he didn't mean to r@pe her...
          
          WHAT THE FUCK!?
          
          Part 1

Its 11pm on a Halloween night and my freaking light just stared flickering before it finally died.. what the frick!? H e l p   I m    b e i n g   h a u n t e d