12/17/25
Part 1
Ok, so. Today the power went out during 1st period and it gave me time to think about what to do about the situation I was in. I realized that 1, I'm still madly in love with my ex, the one I just broke up with again. 2, I hardly know this girl and I could hardly remember her name this morning. And 3, while yes, it was nice to kiss someone again, it wasn't either of my ex's.
C was always fun to tease cus it seemed she didn't really know how to kiss, it was cute and I loved helping her learn.
D was almost always hot and heavy, god she was such a good kisser but I would always get way to drunk off of her kisses.
And L, the one I just had to break up with, our kisses were quick, but nice and firm, it always made me anticipate the next time I'd get to kiss her.
With this girl, it didn't really make me feel much of anything, just that it was nice to be kissed by someone after not having any for a while.
At lunch time we ate and then went and walked over to my classroom to grab my bag. Then we went to the bathroom which was completely dark without the lights and she was already trying to put her hands on my arms to kiss me. I thought I heard my friends passing so I put my hands up and said wait. Once the group had passed I relaxed a little, but she seemed hurt. I told her that I just get really anxious, which is true, but I also felt bad about kissing her again when I couldn't get L of my head.
She said it was fine and that if I really didn't want this then she'd just leave and idk why but I told her to stay and that we just needed to talk, I asked her what she wanted and she said "You. I want you to be my gf".
I hardly know this girl and she had actually broken up with her gf yesterday during 3rd period because she found out that she was cheating on her. So I was kinda feeling like a rebound, but I also felt that if I kissed her again then I'd feel like I was using her.
I told her that we had just met, she got mad, stormed out of the stall, and left.